Good question. I feel I’ve put the past behind me, I don’t know if I’m totally over it, specifically because people tell me I’m not. I’ll reminisce and they claim it’s me bringing up the past. Very confusing. I feel it’s when you can tell a story and not feel anything [beyond maybe nostalgia for the memory I guess] you’re over something.

I also feel overwhelmed with life’s troubles at times. I suppose you should ask yourself which pain is worse, the pain of failing or the pain of regret. This is my last week at a job I’ve worked for 3 years which was torture emotionally and mentally [and I guess physically because of my foot/hip pains as a result of standing 10 hours] and I’m terrified but I know the fear of might not finding a job for a while is less painful than staying here. On top of that I’m moving somewhere I’ve never been, and again I’m scared. Some days I contemplate staying put, but I know how miserable I am here, the fear is temporary, give it a week or two and I’ll settle into my new surroundings and that fear will be gone.

Life is about choices, sometimes they’re bad, but they help you in the long run, you just need to learn how to keep fear in check. [Lol, I’m one to talk, my boyfriend has to pay me on the head almost daily and tell me I’m going to be ok.] Maybe you just need some reassurance from a loved one.