I hope you are okay, anita, don’t be anxious you have a great mind and you give great advice;) I wish there was a hiking club, I think I might start one, it would be a good contribution to the school. I like your idea of having a picture of nature to look at when I’m stressed. There are times when I feel like nothing I do is ever enough, there are so many people who keep seeing my faults and wonder why I even am trying. One guy told me today that I was never going to do well in math and science and I should just focus on english and history, but english and history don’t hold appeal for me as they used to, i like learning about math and science more. this same guy told me that i was a failure in life and called me fat. I am currently 117 pounds with a height of 5′ 5”. one of my friends who was sitting three seats down defended me. i have to take the physics honors test tomorrow because of the concert that took place in school today. I realize that there is a lot of competition in my school, but I have three guy friends who no matter what always help me with school and I’m grateful for their support. My special friend seems to be drifting away from me; he doesn’t like the person I’ve become the person who is trying quite hard, being competitive and trying to do well in school and get a good career. I think the part that he doesn’t like is how a lot of my friends are guys, since most of the people who enjoy math and science and working out in nature (camping, hiking, running) at my school are guys. He feels incompetent with all the other guys since his gpa is only 89.9, while my other friends and me have 91-94s and higher. i try to talk to him sometimes these days to tell him it’s okay if his gpa isn’t as high and also that I still care about him, but it’s like an awkwardness has come between us and we are forging our own paths. We were once such close friends that we were often called spiritual partners by our other friends, now we just feel like acquaintances trying to understand each other for the first time.