Thanks anita;) i think i have a pre-calc and physics honors test on tuesday, so i am working on studying for it. on tuesday, i am also going to get my permit to drive. i also have to help my parents study for the restaurant safety test so they can recertify themselves. the good thing is, there are so things that i’m starting to understand in physics honors, but i still need some more practice. for pre-calc, i enjoy learning about logarithms and the teacher is great, she tries to make learning fun for her students and really enjoys her job. she patiently explains things to students and will often sit with them until they understand the topics unlike my physics honors teacher who only briefly takes 10 minutes to explain something. track is fun because i have a lot of friends there and it is great to be carefree and run at times and also i can’t wait to try out for throwing shot put and discus. my special friend said that i was athletic and strong and he is glad that i do track and field because it keeps me in shape and also when i run, i seem more of a free spirit and calmer. i find that whenever my special friend and i do sports together, we aren’t as guarded around each other and we are more laid back since we both are laughing and playing sports, sometimes we will tease each other on school. my special friend said that he doesn’t mind me being a buddhist wiccan and that he’s glad that i am working on reiki healing and he believes that i can make it happen, that i can heal my circulation, acne and eyesight. he doesn’t think wicca is evil or supernatural and he knows that it is just meditation, union with nature and radiating positive energy toward your goal. he’s the first guy whose been quite accepting of my religion because a lot of people tend to think i am a freak when i mention it because wicca often has the common misconception of magic and sorcery such as harry potter. however, my special friend did some research on wicca and he thought it was pretty cool that wiccans would use the natural energy of the universe to fill themselves with positive energy (much like a person soaking up the sun’s rays on a summer day) and directing that energy toward their goal and bringing it closer. yet, you still have to work for the goal, you can’t just send energy and think it will happen. the energy is just to assist you and bring you into a more positive state and make the path easier and the goal easier to attain, it takes time and effort to actually have results. anyway, wicca and buddhism tend to go quite well together because they both value compassion for human beings, nature, healing from suffering and have a concept in life after death like nirvana or reincarnation. there are times when i feel strained and i feel like my head is spinning and also i feel sad and broken and when i pretend i’m fine, he is always there and says “don’t deny that you’re fine when you really aren’t. it’s okay to feel broken and sad at times because i’m here for you.” he is very supportive and he tells me “i don’t care what other people say about you and i don’t care about the criticism your parents put on you. i’m here for you if you ever need comfort or someone to talk to.” i tend to hide fears, sadness and tears from my parents because they tend to think that to show fear, sadness and tears makes you a weak person. whenever, i am upset my parents tell me to get over it and stop being so childish, but when i’m upset around my special friend and try to hide it (sometimes when i try to hide my sadness from my parents i succeed), he always sees through it and he says “i know you’re upset, tell me what’s wrong, so i can take away the pain or make you feel better.” he listens and gives advice and support and also one time in eighth grade when i was quite sad and stressed from school and started crying, he followed me out into the hall and took me somewhere where we both could be alone and he held me while i cried telling me it was okay and that he was here for me. he waited until i was calmer and asked me what was wrong and he listened. when the teacher came down and said he could go back to class and i could be left alone for a while, he told the teacher that he wanted to make sure i was okay and he wanted to stay. anyway, the teacher let us both stay together for the remainder of the day, since i also said that i wanted him to stay as well and at the end of the day i was back to my normal self.