Thank you for responding Anita.

I’m having a hard time in my corporate job, it’s not a great fit for me and so it’s hard. I’m also trying to start my own business and haven’t been able to attract any clients for 6 months despite feeling like I’m doing what I’ve been told will work.

I believed I had something to share, a skill and a want to serve. I was told that it’s all crap and that I need to just be in the moment, that all of my efforts are useless and superfluous to success.

I have a deep, great and core fear of not living my life to the best of my ability (born from finding out I’m a replacement child). Now, I think it’s all just crap and I don’t in fact have much to offer at all. I was challenged on my authenticity, my skill and my value. Now, I feel like a fraud, I have no skill and my value is in ‘being’ not ‘doing’.

I have lots of tools I call upon to help me in time of need… nothing is working. mantras, crystals, journalling, meditation, walking, yoga… nothing. I can’t help but feel like giving up on what I wanted for myself, quit everything and just live on the welfare and waste my life.

Thank you for listening.