Hi, I’ve never posted before and it even feels strange writing my thoughts down.
I could write a book on my situation and emotions.
I’ll try to keep it short and to the point.
My current state of mind is depressed I have no motivation and feel worthless.
My husband and I moved to the other side of the world ( uk to Oz) 2 half years ago, at the time our 2 daughters (19 and 22) did not wish to relocate due to boyfriends and friends. The first year here was awful, I have never cried so much… Our life in the uk was in a rut and we were unhappy… So an opportunity to move was a massive challenge and breath of fresh air. It is beautiful and totally different living here, I can walk along the ocean in the warm most days opposed to walking along a smoggy car fumed road. I initially worked for 18 months which kept me sane but in November lost my job.
I haven’t worked since and from that point have spent so much time in my own, I miss my daughters so much…we text every day, but I feel so guilty and can’t imagine living my life forever here just seeing them once a year.
I left a massive network of family and friends and initially I was glad to get away from it all. But here I have struggled to make friends and lost all motivation to be bothered.
I do yoga and practice meditation, it helps a little but the good feelings are short lived.
I feel my confidence is lost, I’m becoming so lazy and just don’t care about myself.
My husband is as supportive as possible, but he’s now had to become my everything, as I just have found it so hard making and keeping friends…..I long for those deep friendships that I left behind.

I just don’t know where my life is anymore …… Should we go home back to the life we so wanted to get away from but back to our daughters or do we stay…. My head is a total mess……but one thing for sure is I miss my girls so very much ….