Thanks anita;) I love my shot put teammates, they are funny and supportive. also, i am starting to get the hang of shotput, the shotput is starting to feel a little more easier to hold. i just have to work on positioning my wrist better and also putting more force in my throw, but i’m getting better. ever since i’ve been in physics honors, i’ve started to understand more about the natural forces acting on us in the world. today at track practice, i predicted the wind speed to be 15mph by the angle of the sun and also the speed at which the wind was moving my hair, i checked the weather channel and i was only off by 3 points (18 mph) 🙂 so the galvanometer measures electrical current (but i’m not very good with electricity), barometers measure air pressure and anemometer measures wind pressure. physics honors is great in how we have so many real-life applications. andrew seems a bit insecure these days because i’m starting to become better at science than he is, but he is still good at mechanical knowledge than i am. i feel bad because he is always tense around me and he seems to be researching more ways to do better. also, i can estimate the speed of my bus according to the weather so i can arrange myself in the morning well in time so i don’t have to wait for the bus. my pre-calc teacher is great, she was explaining about how the greeks came up with much of our math and science systems today. eratosthenes was able to calculate the circumference of the earth without any technology except for pen and paper and only missed by about 100 from what it really is 24901.55. i really admire the greeks in their history and math, although the egyptians and persians had the first concept of surgery. i find it fascinating how much the primitive people could do when most modern people now think they are uncivilized. i feel like i can connect with chris mccandless when he feels that this world has become too capitalistic and technological and there isn’t much respect for the primitive ways and people anymore. i think mccandless wanted to truly experience life and work without the baggage of the technology the world has and see if he could live in unity with nature and simplistically. my ap world history teacher said that the native americans often felt sad when the europeans destroyed their forest because they really appreciated nature. the native americans were quite resourceful with their environment such as in what Jaguar Paw was able to do with his environment and 5 indians could tackle a boar. i see many similarities between mccandless and myself. i find that i also love nature and enjoy being alone often running in the woods where i can be free from material pressures. mccandless felt the world was too materialistic and all people cared about was competition and profit instead of leading a simplistic life, working together with nature. i find that the books mccandless reads “walk in the woods”, “war and peace” and the like appeal to me. also after hanging out with andrew for a while, i feel like i know a little more about mechanics than i thought i did such as complex pulley systems and levers. although, i feel bad because the more i’m learning the more he seems to feel insecure because he thinks i have more knowledge; i wish we could be closer friends than competitive ones. my special friend seems distant from me and also my lunch buddy because i tend to have quite a lot of fun with math, science and a little bit of history with my track friends. my special friend likes english more and often feels left out and my lunch buddy who does sprints (i”m okay with them, but not big fan) and i don’t converse as much, our classes tend to diverge as well. however, my track friends are great and entertaining and i feel like i can retain lots of information. there are times when i’ll see flashes of light and wings and i know my angels are around me. i also get burst of intuition and also a psychic sight sometimes that helps me figure things out quicker. i was walking with andrew after ap english and we were discussing economics and camping and i remember seeing him a bit tense and insecure and i felt bad and wished i could make him see that he was really smart, so while we were walking there was a shower of light and the buddha appeared on a cloud in front of us (andrew’s mom is a buddhist, so it didn’t surprise him) and the buddha said “you are learning lots in life now, you are on a path about to find yourself. laugh and enjoy yourself.” i think after seeing the buddha both of us were a lot more relaxed and less competitive academically and we shared a few laughs. i feel like mccandless has a shell around him that makes him sociable at time and withdrawn at others and also seem more receptive to some people and not others, i feel like everyone has that as a teenager. i think he is trying to make himself who he truly is without any material influences, i think he may have gone to alaska for a spiritual reason to escape from the pressures of society and his parents. i feel like i can connect with him like that because sometimes i want to be alone by myself to appreciate the beauty of nature. i also, in my healing meditations, i often call upon the angels and the buddha and say “i am forgetting all i’m lacking. i let go of all that holds me back. i let go of who i’m not. come buddha and angels and fill me with the light of my true myself and my true purpose. make my path one of light and love. i surrender all of myself to you now.” while i’m saying this i’m kneeling on the ground with my hands raised palm up to the heavens and i imagine the light from the divine pouring into me. this meditation is a healing and a connecting to my true self and authentic purpose and also a good cleansing. also i admire augie camacho (no matter what the circumstance, he still manages to only stay upset for ten minutes before he becomes happier again). he is not much of a runner, but he still tries quite hard and he ends up sweaty and out of breath and he never gives up even when some people criticize him, he still continues to push himself. he has a great sense of humor and is mostly laid-back and self-assured. since my parents can be quite criticizing at times and also since i’ve been bullied, i tend to be cautious in relationships and friendships much like chris mccandless. like mccandless who talks about possibly having a family at times and one in which people are loyal and care about each other and aren’t pressured by material needs, i feel like i can be very loyal to the friends i have and when and if i have a family, i will raise the family with love and self-confidence and to appreciate the true beauty of life. i think i see myself as a spiritual healer in this world, i would love to spend 3 years finding myself out in nature and then helping others who have lost their way in life find their way.

also my circulation isn’t as bad anymore, my hands aren’t as cracked and purple, although they can still be cold at times, but they are quicker to warm.