Ellie Batchiyska, Author at Tiny Buddha

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Ellie Batchiyska is a freelance writer and blogger based in Los Angeles. She graduated from the American Jewish University with a degree in Communication & Media. She currently works in digital marketing, but uses her free time to hone her creative writing skills and mindfulness practice. Her personal blog is her outlet for millennial musings and slice-of-life reflections.

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Grief Isn’t Something You Live Through, It’s Something You Live With

By Ellie Batchiyska

“Obstacles do not block the path, they are the path.” ~Zen proverb

I thought the concept of a “cold sweat” was unreal and paradoxical until the evening of August 27, 2014. That was my first cold sweat. My first of a lot of things.

My heart jack-hammered in my chest.

I heard my pulse in my ears.

I gasped for air on my dorm room floor in New York, while my mom tried to calm me down on the other end of the phone in Los Angeles.

“It’s just a panic attack, sweetie. Just breathe deep.”