I Hate Hugging: Getting Over the Fear of Intimacy

“It takes courage to grow up and become who you really are.” ~E.E. Cummings

I was a shy kid. My mom said that when I was in pre-school, the teacher asked all of the kids to hold hands and I said, “No thanks, I’ll just hold my own.”

That may have been the beginning of my aversion towards human contact. As a kid, I remember grandparents, aunts, and uncles giving me big horrible hugs. If I didn’t blatantly push them away or wiggle free, I stood there stiff as board, until the torture was over.

They thought this was adorable and would laugh and laugh. No one thought to seek professional help. They probably thought I’d out grow this, but I did not.

It became more apparent by middle school. I don’t know what went on at your junior high, but at mine, girls were constantly touching!

They were hugging multiple times per day, playing with each other’s hair, giving one another backrubs, and playing that weird arm tickling game where you plant a garden and watch it grow. If you’re curious what this actually is, don’t Google “girl’s tickling each other.” That’s not it!

I remember the nervous rides to Chaparral Middle School. My mind would race. Who was going to try to hug me today? What would I do? What would I say? I decided: I’d just go along with it, but I wouldn’t hug back, I’d keep it quick, I’d never initiate, and I definitely wouldn’t like it.

I didn’t fool my friends for long though. They started to notice my lack of interest. They made comments like, “You have to hug back girl!” or “Come on, give me a real hug!”

I wanted to vomit. I tried harder for a while. I tried acting like a warmer, more loving person, but it just felt fake.

I let my discomfort build until one day I finally exploded, which is the case with most of the issues I’ve eventually had to face.

My friend Laura picked the wrong girl to hug that day. I pushed her away and yelled, “STOP HUGGING ME! What is the matter with you?” Then addressing all of my girlfriends I pleaded, “Why do you always want to hug? Can’t we just keep to ourselves?”

At this point, I should probably put fears to rest and mention that I was never inappropriately touched. By anyone. No uncle. No neighbor.

I actually wasn’t touched much at all, which may be part of the problem. I come from a close-knit family; growing up they never missed a single soccer game and today they never miss a single funny email forward. We’ve just never been close in the physical sense.

We weren’t a very affectionate family and the little bit we did have was awkward; there was a lot of side hugging.

I also don’t remember my parents being outwardly loving with each other, besides once a year on their anniversary. They’d engage in this dramatic embrace where my dad would dip my mom and peck her lightly on the lips. I, of course, would turn away in disgust.

After my outburst, back at junior high, my friends’ feelings were hurt. At first they gave me the cold shoulder, but I liked that too much.

So they started teasing me. If someone outside our inner circle went in for the hug, they’d warn, “I wouldn’t do that if I were you. Melanie’s not a hugger!” I was embarrassed but relieved.

This continued through high school, but when I went away to college at San Diego State, I had to explain my beliefs all over again.

“No Hugging” was a difficult policy for my sorority sisters to wrap their pretty little minds around.

Luckily, I waited to reveal this until large quantities of alcohol were being consumed. They just laughed it off and then against my will hugged me anyway. “I am not kidding!” I cried, as I was squeezed between Victoria Secret Miracle Bras, way too much Mac Make-up, and an overload of Pleasures perfume.

From that day forward, whenever we went out partying (so every night but Monday) this became a running joke. My sorority sisters would send people I’d never seen before in my life over to hug me. These strangers would wrap their arms around, sometimes even double-teaming me! I was living my worst nightmare!

Looking back, I think my hugging repugnance was not about how it felt. I was just scared that I was incompetent in this area.

I felt everyone was naturally warmer than me; that they knew something about life and relationships that I didn’t. A few years after college, it became as clear as Alkaline water that I had a life-limiting fear of intimacy.

In my usual fashion, this was brought to my attention by an eruption of emotion. I had been taking an acting workshop to enhance my stand-up comedy.

After I performed a monologue, my teacher in the most loving, supportive, artsy-fartsy way, suggested I be more vulnerable on stage.

“Well, that’s not going to happen!” I declared in the most defensive way possible. I then proceeded to run out of the theater, get into my car, and drive away. “No one was going to tell me to be vulnerable! How dare he! I will never go back!”

But I crawled back the next week to try and wrap my mind around this outlandish concept he spoke of.

Shortly after that—through an interesting chain of events—I started working with a spiritual advisor, well okay a sponsor. Every time we’d meet she’d give me this big bear hug. I tried to explain my position on hugging, but she wasn’t hearing it.

Instead she grabbed me even tighter and whispered in my ear, “I am going to love you until you can love yourself.”

Ewwwwww gross! What have I got myself into?

But like with the acting class, something kept me going back for more. And it wasn’t just her; everyone in our spiritual development classes (okay Twelve Step meetings) would wrap their arms around me.

They showed me more unconditional love than one person should ever have to endure.

But little by little, I started to soften to their hugs. The transformation was so slow and subtle that I didn’t even notice it happened. Until, one day when I attended an off-site work conference with my company.

I was running late, but luckily there was a complimentary valet. I tossed him my keys and he pointed me in the direction of the convention room. I turned one corner and then another. It was further than I thought. My boss was going to kill me!

As I turned the next corner, I was so relieved to see Derek, my friendly co-worker who everyone loved. I rushed over to him and that’s when it happened—I threw my arms around my colleague and pulled him in tight. Oddly, he stiffened up and pulled away.

Just then, my mind flashed to the mandatory sexual harassment video we had recently watched. I think this was one of the scenarios! Darren looked stunned as we found our seats.

As I sat there in the conference room—bright red—it dawned me just how so far I had come. So far that I was now accidentally hugging co-workers (who were only opening their arms to usher me inside).

I laughed and felt this comforting warmth fill me. I guess I was capable of connection. I guess I wasn’t inadequate after all.

None of us are. But intimacy doesn’t come naturally for a lot of people. Many of us have to work for it. Or better, work to break down the defenses that keep closeness at an arm’s distance.

So, we’re the ones sitting in the front row at Marianne Williamson talks. We’re the ones cutting out inspirational images for our vision boards. We’re the ones pouring these new things called feelings into journal after journal. We’re the ones buying ourselves flowers.

I have proof that all of the work is worth it though. And, I am marrying this beautiful person in a few short weeks.

We all laughed, but maybe Stuart Smalley had it right all along. So, please repeat after me: “I’m good enough, I’m smart enough, and doggone It, people like me!”

Oh, and co-worker Derek never did file a complaint.

Photo by deneers

About Melanie Reno

You may recognize Melanie Reno from “Comedy Central,” but she doubts it. Melanie produces and hosts the female storytelling show, “That Time of the Month.” Her goal is to become the Poster Girl for Anxiety. Check out her blog The Nail Biter.

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  • Jen

    I really, really, really enjoyed this.  I remember talking to my counselor and asking her how typically the hug usually goes – “What are the parameters for a hug?” I would ask, like it’s this logical explanable thing.  Like you, my family was never very physically affectionate but neither were my friends in school.  I didn’t want my own kids growing up being uncomfortable with it, because in truth I think hugs are pretty nice.  Strangely, I’ve become comfortable with hugging my kids but when you wrote about accidentally hugging your coworker I was mortified.  I can’t imagine that.  I’m glad you made progress with hugging.  It really is nice once it’s not a terrifying experience.

  • LadyTamborine

    Thanks to your post, I can now better understand how many non-huggers may feel. 
    Indeed, feeling vulnerable is a scary thing and perhaps learning to love ourselves can be even scarier.

    Great post.

  • Nina

    All of my friends poke fun at me for being the “non-hugger” of the group. I have always been that way. I have one friend who refuses to care about my no touchy feely policy, she hugs me every chance she gets. Hard. I never thought of my hug avoiding as a fear of intimacy, but as I read your article I cried. “I’m going to love you until you can love yourself.” What a beautiful thing to say, and to hear. After reading this I want to work on my intimacy issues and one day be able to say those words to someone, mean them, and follow through with them. Thank you for sharing this, it truly sparked an “ah-ha” moment for me. I think next time I see my friend, I will hug her. hard. Thank you. 

  • Margie

    This hit home for me! Your teen years and family sound like they were written out of my life story. Some of my friends even have jokes about ‘awkward hugs’ or ‘hand hugs’ with me. I just have always felt uncomfortable being hugged or even holding hands – being outwardly affectionate is not natural for me and always feels and comes out forced. I can also probably cound on 2 hands the number of times I have vocally told my boyfriend I love him and we have been together for almost 2 years. The words also never feel natural. I guess never thought to wonder why I have such an aversion to intimacy. I too don’t have a traumatic background. But, I never equated my ‘issue’ to a fear of intimacy. This article has helped me start to reflect on what it is that I’m afraid of…though it’s really just a starting point…I dream of the day I’m able to love openly and hug freely!!!

  • Anonymous

    I’m autistic and very much dislike hugs from people that I don’t know very, very well.  I used to feel bad, and self conscious about it, but anymore I have decided to embrace all of my quirks and not being touchy-feely is one of them.  Not everyone who doesn’t like hugs needs to change.  There’s room for introverted types and extroverted ones too in the world! I wrote a post on hugs a couple months ago:

  • I like what you said, especially “I have decided to embrace all of my quirks”.  I’ve started doing that as well.  Sometimes I say something that comes out awkwardly, or I have a weird reaction to something and instead of getting embarrassed, I just think, “well, everyone has their quirks, and that was one of mine”.  So good for you!

  • This was a great piece.  Even though I mostly don’t think twice about being hugged, I do respect other people’s boundaries when it comes to hugging others.  I definitely recognize how unwanted it can be for many people and I like to get to know someone’s preferences a bit before I touch them at all.  I think it’s sad that someone who doesn’t like to hug would have to be made fun of.  I don’t understand why it’s so weird to think that it might make people uncomfortable, or that there might be circumstances or cultural differences that would make hugging unwanted.  Either way, I enjoyed reading this and it’s nice to see that you were able to overcome your dislike of hugging!  It is also nice to know there are people out there willing to “love us until we love ourselves”.  I hope I can be that person for someone else someday.

  • Wequestionauthority

    Thank you for writing this! I’m 56 and struggled with this for years, knowing that my lack of hugging giving and receiving was from my family of origin. I too am mostly over this and listen to my body when in contact with others. I think listening to our bodies is so very important because there are boundaries!!! lol And then the hugs to and from some people are just so delicious!!! Thank you!

  • Love this article! My parents never hug or touch me so I became a non-hugger/toucher too. Not that I’m affected negatively or have any fears, I’m just not used to hugging people I’m not close to and feel like it’s rude to touch people without their permission.

  • I want to HUG you for writing this:)

    This writing is laced with vulnerability as well as humor. Very engaging with a great message: You have to get out of your comfort zone if you want to change your life.

  • Gllelove

    I’m very glad you were able to work through it. Hugging has a lot of benefits for health too.

  • Marilynrmart

    Yep! sounds familiar. Still working on it but I definitely feel better that I’m not the only one that does this. And I also thought hugs felt fake but will work on keeping a warm embrace for friends n family. Thx for sharing

  • Jaw

    Whoa, hold the phone as a nonhugger I want to say some of us just don’t want peoples germs, them rubbing themselves on us, or even care to get that personal with the general population.  It’s not about loving myself, or being able to be intimate. And as far as hugging colleague, please be careful there are those out there that will file a sexual harassment charge and it may not even be the one being hugged.  Best of luck to you, I am glad you have come to an understanding of why you didn’t like hugs. 

  • Anonymous

    is no need to look for love. you can never find what you dont recognize inside
    of you. look no further than inside of you for the love you seek. what you
    might find is the greatest love of all inside of you. once you find that, there
    is no need to seek any love outside of you. you will then realized that  all other love  are lacking and always leading to suffering in
    the end as they are not real.

  • Hi Margie! Great to hear your insights! Yes, I think intimacy is worth investigating. I am still not the warmest person in the world, so I for one appreciated QuietContemplation’s comment about embracing our quriks!!  😉 

  • thank you – this helped me!!!  i know that embracing my other quirks has been very freeing, so thanks for the reminder. 😉

  • now you made me cry!  wow, sharing this story is helping me get even more in touch with myself…Nina, I will love you until you love yourself! 

  • I want you to hug me too Mika! they don’t call them growing pains for nothing I guess, huh? 😉 

  • I would love to hear about some of the benefits! maybe it will keep me motivated to continue on this path…thanks!!

  • how cool that you can understand us non-huggers now! it is interesting how we can all be so different in that area. my fiance’s family is total huggers. it is fascinating to me. 😉

  • alana

    This is so ME.  I read this and I felt so good that someone could identify with what I’ve been feeling. I’m only 18, but like your parents, mine never showed affection, AT ALL.  Our hugs we shared are awkward, and I know they love me, but it’s not vocalized at all.  I have a boyfriend, long distance right now, and I fear the day we see each other (which is coming soon) that something as small as a HUG, is going to be awkward.  Even showing my friends any affection is hard: no kisses on the cheek, no hugs, etc. 

    Intimacy definitely doesn’t come natural to me.  And I am scared to love I believe, because it requires being vulnerable, and open…and although I want that type of relationship, it is hard to let your guard down.  I’ve never really had an experience that “made” me this way, which is why I thought I was just weird.  But, I do want love, and I do want intimacy.  I’m just scared of it. This article helped me a lot though; I’m looking to overcome this fear.

  • the “parameters” for a hug! love it! that should have been the title of this story. 😉 thanks for your comment – made me smile – now get our there & hug a co-worker! hehe 

  • I know! germs! I still freak out if someone I hug is a little sweaty or just naturally stinky. as for sexual harassment, luckily the only person I see at work now is my fiance (write from home) & I am pretty sure he will not file a complaint if I hug him, but you never know these days! 😉

  • I am learning so much about people from writing this story! Thanks for your comment. I didn’t really consider the cultural differences thing ’til way later in writing this…but it is so interesting. I hope you break someone in to hugging one day too! My “spiritual advisor” was very persistent, but patient. I am so grateful. xoxo Melanie 😉

  • I am so glad! One thing that really helped me was to look at where my parents came from. My dad’s side had some abuse and my mom’s was loving, but not very affectionate. And since neither of my parents have had any therapy, I realized they are just doing the best they can with the models they saw. We are so lucky these days since therapy, meditation, 12 step programs are not taboo anymore! We can change the cycle! woo hoo. That said, I don’t think I will ever be the warmest person alive & I am ok with that. baby steps. 😉 best of luck! -Mel

  • hehehe yes, hugs can feel so fake 😉 since writing this article I have been more present when I am hugging and trying to “embrace” the experience more. it is nice. xo, Mel

  • yeah…it is odd to me that people I barely know want to hug OR WORSE do that crazy air kiss on each cheek…i am totally confused what to do…i even practiced with my fiance, but I still end up nearly kissing them on the mouth or somehow having them kiss my forehead.  😉 that will have to be my next article – ha! ~ Melanie

  • thanks! yes, I definitely still set boundaries with the hugs – it is usually with older men…hehe I have a good girlfriend though who gives the best hugs – so tight! She smells good too, so it is extra nice.

  • Megan

    This is me all over and I have just recently realized that I have a problem with intimacy and affection :/ A friend hugged me last night and I always find myself pulling away way before she does. My family was the same way, close but not didn’t hug much and all that. Glad to know I’m not alone and hope to get better about it soon!

  • Wow! I felt like It was me who wrote this article… Never knew there were others in the world that is exactly like meeeeee… (lol) I am seeing a therapist now and this is part of it. For the past 2 weeks he has challenged me to hug my mother and I still have not done it. (Sad right?) Well, the thing I noticed that we all have in common is that lack of, or absence of affection in our childhoods. I had no father in the home and my mother wasn’t affectionate or verbal with us… Kinda had to fend for ourselves. With me being the oldest I had to pretty much raise the younger siblings while she was working 2 jobs and school, I guess I’d built up a wall and couldn’t dare show any signs of vulnerability or weakness in my eyes and it has carried over into my 35 years of life even still. I am working hard to “love me more….” and now since I see that I’m not alone in this thing, there’s HOPE! If you can do it, so can I. 🙂 huggggggggsss! (I think I did that right)

  • gwynneve

    it’s e.e.cummings. all small letters. i’ll let you do the research to find out why so you can have your own adventure. love. your column. i pass it on to friends.

  • sereneD

    Love your writings and especially this one. My “spiritual advisor” always pushed it too, glad he did, such an amazing transfer of energy. Now I do the same with those I work with too, they are usually a little “stiff as a board” at first…..until they do start to love themselves. Now everytime I see my sponsor, it’s a big lift him off the ground embrace…..I’m a pretty big guy and he is pretty small, like yoda or something. Thanks again, really enjoy these and sharing them. Love and Light, D

  • guest

    Very interesting post. I’d like to bring in another perspective to this issue. My wife is literally how you described yourself in this post, whereas I am completely on the other side of the spectrum. I was brought up in a family with some might say exaggerated levels of outward affection between my mom and dad and myself. As a result I find kissing, hugging, and verbalising love and affection in a relationship as a natural and even a necessary element in any loving relationship, and especially in a marriage. Not the case with my wife’s family. There was very little physical and verbal affection between them, and as a result she finds anything in that regard to be awkward and uncomfortable. We have been married for close to 5 years now but our marriage does not have the slightest bit of intimacy, at least in my opinion. In the early years I tried to “change” her by making her hug me more and confronting her in cases where I thought a kiss or an “i love you” is called for, but it didn’t work. She kept saying that it feels fake to her when she doesn’t get the“urge” from the inside, and that she shows her love in “other ways” that I never notice or understand. After a while I simply stopped, cause I was not getting any affection back from her. The only time she sincerely expresses her love is in writing on our anniversaries. Now I am dealing with this void of affection in my life in my own head, and have actually got less affectionte with others like my mom or siblings as a result. I feel that I robbed myself from one of the most beautiful and positive-energy things in life. I feel guilty at times for even proposing to her when I knew very well how she is when it came to showing affection. The other thing that I’m extremely scared of is how our little boy will turnout growing up in a house with no outward intimacy between mom and dad. I am always hugging him and kissing him and telling him how much I love him, hoping that’d be enough to teach him how to outwardly show love and affection to others. The hardest thing is having everything you wished for in your life, and at the same time feeling a complete lack of love and intimacy. I think to myself what’s the point of loving someone if you can not express it or verbalize it. I have told her about these things and I’m sure she understands it fully, but more than often she gets defensive and withdrawn even more. Sorry about the long post, but any reading suggestions or exercises for her to at least open up a little bit more? Baby steps right…

  • Perhaps sending her a link to this article might help! Either person shouldn’t have to change completely in order to compromise. It might be nice if you meet in the middle. Perhaps you can ask her to do a few things during the day like hold your hand– for the sake of your son? And from there, if she gets used to it, maybe her affection will grow. But if not, at least you both have compromised a bit.

  • Hmmmm Melanie…now I’m searching my memory to see if I’ve ever made you feel uncomfortable!!! 😉 I’m such a hugger…lots of hugging…love to hug. Very well written…and insightful. 

  • Sarah

    This is wonderful, touching…and funny! Thank you for sharing this so intimately, Melanie. – Sarah T.

  • Idrathernotgiveyouit

    Who is Darren? Anyways, I don’t like hugs either. And when I try giving hugs they are so awkward, after hugging people don’t come back for a second. Which I like, but at the same time I feel inadequate.

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  • Christie

    Awesome, Melanie

  • AJ

    How exactly did you grow out of this? My girlfriend has this problem she wont let me hug her until we are away from other people she says its because she feels vulnerable…how can I help her though?

  • Jeevan

    Hey Melanie,

                      I would like to add that to everyone who is hopefully reading my post that; hugging/kissing could also have very much to do with what culture one is from…While in U.S.; touching is a very common gesture for most ppl…in many other cultures around the world such as in Scandinavian countries & South-East Asia; people may hardly touch or show any public displays of affection & its not bcz there is anything wrong with them or a lack of intimacy in their relationships…it may just be the NORM in that particular culture! 

    P.S. I can really relate to this post & getting used to hugging & kissing
    ppl is something I am still getting used to in my life.  This post def helps put a new perspective on it…Thank U for sharing & hope u r a having a wonderful married life! 🙂

  • Sian

    hi i am a teen now and im going through exactly what you were but i cant help but blame it on parents and people around me who dont hug me and show me affection and so when someone hugs i do the awkard standstill thing but when its over i long for it and when im really upset i want a hug but im just not used to it.i dont know what to do

  • Rebeccawightman

    Yeah this sounds alot like me right now i hate physical contact with my parents and people in general. My parents never gave me any physical contact no hugs, kisses, love yous. Yuck. I avoid having to touch them altogether the thought of touching them makes me sick. Whenever someone tries to hug me i go all stiff.

  • Frost_Bite252

    Great read.

  • ElRe

    This is me in every way sans the part of overcoming my fear. I don’t know why but I used to be very open to hugs as a kid but come late elementary school and so forth I just became more withheld and kept to myself as I had started to develop social anxiety and depression. Nowadays I’ve managed to triumph over my depression and while I still struggle with social anxiety I manage to work over it.

    But my fear of intimacy is still present since I’m always afraid of what the other person thinks or I just ruin it since I become afraid of my relationship becoming deeper and I don’t know what to do (since I’m relationship impaired, haha).

    After reading the article I feel a bit more confident in developing relationships and being a bit more open to intimacy whether on my part or others. I hope I can become hugger eventually too.

  • WLC

    I dislike touches and hugs from anyone I don’t know well and love. Everyone else needs to keep their damn hands to themselves. If I were in the situation you were in I would have left the sorority. I wouldn’t have spoken to any of them again. I wouldn’t have gone to another event, ever. Nobody has the right to gang up on you to force you to change. What a buch of insensitive jerks. your sorority sisters were. Gives me the creeps just hearing about it. I think my dislike of touching is natural and healthy and normal, and has to do with my built in nervous system and sensitivity and tactile issues. Being touched creates a creepy, uncomfortable physical sensation and I can’t even wrap my head around the fact that some people experience it differently. I’m happy the way I am, I refuse to change and have every right not to chand a thing. I am not missing anything, I have everything in life I need and want. I think being contstantly hugged and touched is creepy and unecessary and I know that we all have a right to our personal space. True, some people are more touchy feely than others, but if they can’t respect my differences and restrain themselves the fault is more in them (the touchy feelies) than in you or me, or any of us who are more introverted.

  • WLC

    I totally agree with you.

  • WLC

    I totally agree with you. Why can’t people like the touchy-feelies just accept that being a non-hugger is not a flaw that needs to be corrected? Maybe the huggers need correcting, lol. I think those types have a totally wrong idea of why people don’t want to hug them. We. Just. Don’t. They need to keep their hands to their sides! And stop making our lives miserable! 😉

  • bmelo

    Read the 5 love languages. Great book!

  • Emily

    I’m so glad i found this article. I never noticed that i didn’t like physical touch until high school but after reading this it makes me feel less of a freak (: all my friends always hug each other even as just a greeting but i’ve never liked any physical touch and i flinch if anyone does. Same situation as you i’ve never been physically harassed i think it’s because my family has never been physicially affectionate so i’m not used to any physical interaction. My friends think i’m joking when i tell them not to touch me but i hope i can learn to hug a friend comfortably in the future. Thank you <3

  • asd

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  • Dragon2

    I find this extremely interesting. I can admit that I too am one of the shy people, who doesn’t like being touched, especially from people I do not know. Even from people I do know, I wouldn’t go out of my way to try to hug or kiss them. I had a female work colleague give me a hug recently, because I did her a favour and I felt kind of awkward. Our workplace has a masseur on site two days a week and have had so for many years. Yet, I wouldn’t myself take up the opportunity for a massage, because I just don’t like strange people touching me. However, if I’m with a man who I totally adore, I can’t get enough of him. He can be all over me with any type of intimacy without any problems. I believe if you truly love someone, it becomes a natural feeling to be intimate with that person. So, does that make me odd or normal?

  • I don’t like hugging. My friends tried to hug my, but my body refuse that. My mom and dad are the only one who can hug me. Besides, I love hugging them, I feel safe hugging my parents. I tried to develop myself in hugging. Now, If I want to hug my friends I just hit my right shoulder to his/her left one. like I giving them a half hug.

    I don’t know why I don’t like hugging. Not just that, I don’t like the seat-belt too, because its feel like someone is hugging me. I feel suffocated when someone hug me!

  • Lila

    wow, im surprised that there are so many people, who have similar things-issue. Thanks for shared story. Some of its details are very similar to my life, like my familie – we did not hug at all, didnt have emotional talks. we just existed in one flat, and did what we had to do – work, school, eat, sleep, watch TV. School time was tuff, I learned this look “WTF are you trying to do!” to others if someone tried to hug, or touch my shoulder, arm. And I did not get why people like hugs, and so on, and was also very stiff if someone hugged me. In university i tried to change, forced my self to pretend I like hugs, or tried to turn situation in a way people dont notice that actually I dont feel confortable. And I succeed that (although, probably people can see through that some things is not right) , which is the worst part. Because I m quite outgoing, communicable, smiling a lot, talking a lot – from the first look, but im 24 years old, and had not trusted no person to hug me longer than some couple seconds. Of course this problem “kills” me with each day more. My parents and friends usually where surprised when i tried to mention that maybe i should visit some specialist, at least just for fun. I had this not very good experience in work. People can be cruel, and coworkers made jokes and laughed that probably i was abused in childhood. And coworker in which i had crush, (ouh naive me, i thought he liked me too;) was just playing a long with others, and making jokes (like putting hand around me,or suddenly hugging), and one day someone at my presence asked him when finally he will asks me out, he answered “never, i need warm girl”.

    But that makes sense, that i should not lie to my self, that im like others. But trie to accept who I am, and be proud about it, and leave my live as I am comfortable. Well, thats of course its much easier to say, than live up to this principe. 😉

    Well, your article helps, at least by just acknowledge whats wrong, and trying to put out some kinda solution. Thanks again!

  • Grace

    I am the exact same way. When people hug me I usually go stiff in their arms and don’t hug them back. I feel awkward with hugging, and I feel terrible when I don’t hug people back. Lately, I’ve been trying my best to get over the awkwardness of hugs by hugging back others when they hug me. Like you, I am kind of shy, and hugs make me feel weird. Just be conscious of how others will react when you don’t hug them back, even though your not a hugger yourself, some may get offended. It hasn’t happened to me when I don’t hug others back though.

  • Anon

    I’m in your wife’s shoes in this situation. But would like to ask you (and Commenter Dragon2) was she affectionate in the beginning of the relationship? I find in the early stages of a relationship I can be very affectionate. Kissing, hugging, sharing a bed no problems but after a year or two, or we move in together, I kind of just… shut down. I dislike hugging and lovey shit. I put that down to just being around someone so much (and I have a son always vying for my attention) that I feel ‘hemmed in’ or ‘over hugged’ and need space… but I have considered I might have an intimacy problem. Relationships starting out aren’t half as intimate as they can be a few years in…

  • kesmi

    I hate being this way. Ever since I was little my dad never hugged me so I thought if he didnt like it I shouldnt hug him either, throughout the years I became the person who hated to be touched. Now my dad is getting older and he has changed and he always says he wants a hug from me just incase I something happens to him and I never hugges him. Believe me I want to hug him and give him a big kiss, but I cant, I cant hug anyone. If I do I feel weak. I want to be tough and independent and I know hugging someone dosnt make you weak but I feel that way. Now people will never know if I really apreciate them or care for them… ughh, but I dont want to change at the same time. I never cared about this untill I was told my heart is cold and no one will ever love me.

  • Nalliah Thayabharan

    Hugging and laughter are extremely effective at healing
    sickness, disease, loneliness, depression, anxiety and stress, but healthy and
    wholesome habits of hugging and laughter are endangered by the bustle of modern
    life. The more typical ways of greeting people like handshakes are designed to
    keep us apart rather than bring us together. Reaching out and hugging releases
    Endorphins and serotonin into the blood vessels and the released Endorphins and
    serotonin cause pleasure and negate pain and sadness, lower blood pressure,
    decrease the chances of getting heart problems, helps fight excess weight and
    prolongs life. Even the cuddling of pets has a soothing effect that reduces the
    stress levels. But teddy bears, whose use has been increasing in the recent
    decades, are a poor substitute for the real hugging. The nurturing touch
    of hugging will make us healthier,
    younger, thinner, more relaxed, live longer, fight depression and make us age
    slower. A proper deep hug, where the
    hearts are pressing together not only improves both psychological and physical
    development, but also helps to build a good immune system, decrease the risk of
    heart disease, and decrease levels of the stress hormone cortisol in women.
    Hugging instantly boost the pair bonding hormone neurotransmitter oxytocin
    levels which stimulates and sharpens the senses, contributes to our sense of
    connectedness, causes to feel calm and happier; and heal loneliness, isolation,
    and anger. During lactation huge amounts of oxytocin are released from the
    brain to the breast tissue allowing milk to flow. Breastfeeding mothers have
    lower blood pressure. Oxytocin receptors have in other tissues, including the
    heart, kidney, thymus, and pancreas. Oxytocin plays a powerful role in
    protecting heart. By touching another person, oxytocin is produced in heart and
    travels throughout blood stream dilating them through a mechanism of increased
    nitric oxide leading to a decrease in blood pressure, less inflammation and
    less plaque build-up. Excess chronic inflammation is the key player in plaque
    buildup in arteries, known as atherosclerosis. Oxytocin reduces free radical formation and
    other inflammatory markers decreasing the risk for heart attack. Hugging
    strengthen the immune system. Love is a miracle drug. Hugging teaches us how to
    give and receive. There is equal value in receiving and being receptive to
    warmth, as to giving and sharing. Hugging educates how love flows both ways.
    The gentle pressure on the sternum and the emotional charge this creates
    activates the Solar Plexus Chakra. This stimulates the thymus gland, which
    regulates and balances the body’s production of white blood cells, which keep
    you healthy and disease free. Hugging for an extended time lifts one’s
    serotonin levels, elevating mood and creating happiness. A couple who hugs for
    20 seconds has higher levels of oxytocin, and that those who were in a loving
    relationship exhibited a highest increase.
    15 minutes of holding hands with a romantic partner can help reduce
    stress, and its harmful physical effects. Adults who have no contact with people
    had higher blood pressure and heart rate.
    Hugging therapy is definitely a powerful way of healing. The energy
    exchange between the two people hugging is an investment in the relationship.
    Hugging encourages empathy and understanding. Hugging is synergistic, which
    means the whole is more than the sum of its parts. This synergy results in
    win-win outcomes. Hugging also builds trust and a sense of safety, helps with
    open and honest communication and boosts self-esteem. In the mother’s womb,
    each part of the fetus’ body is touched by the amniotic fluid, which is the
    origin of the yearning for touch. Holding a baby offers physiological and
    emotional benefits. The tactile sense is very important in infants. During our
    early childhood our family’s touch showed us that we’re loved and special. The
    associations of self-worth and tactile sensations from our early years are
    still imbedded in our nervous system as adults. The cuddles we received from
    our parents, grandparents and relatives while growing up remain imprinted at a
    cellular level, and hugs remind us at a somatic level of that and connects us
    to our ability to self love. Hug relaxes muscles; releases tension in the body,
    take away pain and soothe aches by increasing circulation into the soft
    tissues. Hugging helps to stretch the facial muscles, erase age lines and slow
    the aging process. Hugs balances out the nervous system. The galvanic skin
    response of someone receiving and giving a hug shows a change in skin
    conductance. The effect in moisture and electricity in the skin suggests a more
    balanced state in the nervous system – parasympathetic. Hugging is very similar
    to meditation and laughter, teaches to
    let go and be present in the moment. Hugging encourages to flow with the energy
    of life. Hugging helps to get out of circular thinking patterns and connect
    with the heart, feelings and the breath.

  • Stephanie Stevens

    It has been the way I grew up, I come from a family that is not real affectionate, especially my mother. I did want hugs and reassurance when I was younger, but I have got to the point since I became and adult I’m so use to no human affection that I have become very awkward toward it. I do hug people and sometimes it’s not so bad but other times I feel uncomfortable.

  • Fred

    Why do people insist that you have intimacy issues just because you simply aren’t a hugger? I hug people I know all the time if they’re friends of mine, but this garbage about having to hug people you don’t know particularly well or don’t care about just so you feel validated or have a need to connect is pure B.S. Ever think that some of us don’t have a need to hug everyone/everything in sight and that there’s nothing WRONG with us? I don’t need to analyze myself, be analyzed, have someone ELSE tell me I have issues. There’s nothing wrong with me.

    I just came from a party the other night where we sat in a circle and had to “share a Christmas story” with the “group”. I felt like I was in some 12-step rehab group therapy/Spanish Inquisition/confessional. Reminded me of an AA meeting I attended with a recovering alcoholic friend years ago. “I’m so & so and I’m an alcoholic.” I refused several times before someone said, “Well, we’re just going to sit here and stare at you til you do….” I smiled at her like, “You’re gonna’ be staring a LONG effing time, then….” One woman cried because she didn’t want to talk. LEAVE IT ALONE, PEOPLE.

    Why can’t people wake up to the fact that not EVERYONE who chooses NOT to hug and NOT to share every intimate detail of their lives to total strangers–or even friendly acquaintences–has a problem with intimacy/doesn’t love themselves??? I have NO problem whatsoever hugging/sharing with my friends and family. I have a REAL healthy self esteem. Everyone needs to stop psychoanalyzing everything and just let people be. There’s nothing wrong with not being touchy-feely with people you barely know. It doesn’t mean you have issues—it just means your boundaries are different than people who have to hug everyone in sight. Deal with it. I don’t have intimacy issues—I just don’t like you. I DO spontaneously hug everyone I’m friendly with, but that’s because I know & like them and vice-versa. Get over it. I’d say that people who insist on hugging people who don’t want to be hugged the one with issues and self esteem problems because you NEED to have complete strangers hug you to validate you. I don’t need validation from anyone. Stop trying to label everyone–not everyone has issues.

  • truth_inBeauty

    This is so great, thank you for sharing. 🙂 It felt like I was reading my own hugging-phobia story. And thankfully it is possible for us all to open up to embrace ourselves and love from others. <3!

  • myranda

    I have never been a touchy person. The germ issue pops up but deep down i really just don’t want someone to hug me uninvited. i love myself and want to point out for me it comea down to there are other ways to show affection and appreciation then hugging.
    i was raised by my father who is not by aby means a touchy person, sp it could be a learned behavior. it bothered my boyfriend of 2 years a lot until he met my father. he has also come to understand that instead of making me agitated by forcing hugging, a hand on my leg or offering his arm as we walked was my version of hugging and expressing my affection for him.

  • Melanie

    Ok this is creepy, I was reading this and thinking it sounded just like my life, other than the shy child thing and then unsaid your name was Melanie and I thought…. Did I write this???? Hahaha I had to scroll down to check the author :p anyways I’m going to keep reading now

  • Michael McVey

    There was a much easier solution: tell all those lesbian-but-don’t-want-to-admit-it girls at your school that you were really a boy. They wouldn’t have wanted your hugs after that!

  • Andi Gomez

    It never dawned on me that my lack in need for human touch was because I felt undeserving of it. I, like you, grew up with unaffectionite parents. I’ve opened up through the years and hug my family members to congradulate them or when I vist them. It feels genuine and I’m happy for that. But I can’t be one of those “hug you every time I see you” folk. I can’t stand so much affection. But now I understand, it’s on me. I have to learn to love. It’s hard. I’m ever so selfish an only care for myself and siblings. And starving children… Anywho, Im glad I read this. Thanks.

  • acergirl

    It’s wrong to touch people in any way without their consent full stop. You don’t have to accept any hugs and kisses that you don’t want to. Whether you want therapy or not is up to you because ppl shouldn’t be doing this to you anyway. In fact they are the ones who need therapy to understand that it is not ok. Nobody has the right to force others to doing things they don’t want to or makes them uncomfortable. It’s against their human rights & it’s disgusting.

    But you’re article was still really sweet & so touching to read.

  • kavin paker

    here’s room for introverted types and extroverted ones too in the world! I wrote a post on hugs a couple months ago:
    Hotel Munchen

  • ALEXco

    Could it be the past of my parents divorced well anyway im always the one getting hugged for no reason or just unexpectedly but slowly getting used to

  • Sophie

    I am not a ‘Hugger’ everytime anyone even attempts to hug me who is not my Dad or my Mum, I feel as if I am being choked. My friends know I can’t stand contact but they always say to me “We aren’t going to hurt you!” and most commonly “Come on Sophie, all we want is a hug. It gets really offensive when you push us away”. Everytime I tell them that it isn’t them it is me. The other day a teacher tried to give me a hug as I was worried about my GCSES but all I did was jump up out of my chair and rush to the other side of the classroom. I am a quiet person and doing this really embarrassed me.
    I had never known anyone who shares the dislike of hugs, I thought I was alone so hearing other people are in the same situation is so reassuring and next time one of my friends or brothers trys to hug me I will try to hug them back!

  • Ryan

    Look I am a fourteen year old boy with Aspergers Syndrome and I hate to be hugged by anyone, even my mom. It makes me uncomfortable and always will. I had some experiences with hugging when I was a kid, that’s probably why. But you know what, I love to kiss. Kissing is like one of the most comforting thoughts on this planet, if not THE most comforting thought. So its not like I have germophobia or have intimacy issues or anything like that. I would really like some help here because I feel like a total weirdo for feeling this way and even typing this. Any help with this issue I’m having would be greatly appreciated. Thank You.
    God Bless,

  • Mike

    Try to understand that those sorority girls really don’t understand what they’re doing. I’m sure from your perspective, they’re being invasive, intrusive, and rude. But all they really want to do is connect; they mean no malevolence. They just don’t have the perspective to grasp that people may just not like touching with people they are not completely familiar with.

  • Mike

    Especially being autistic, you have no reason to feel bad about your aversion to hugging. You also seem to approach the situation logically and sensitively – people who try to hug you aren’t trying to hurt you; they probably just love you and want to show it.

  • kayleigh

    I hate hugging, touching, spooning or anything like that and I am worried that the guy I have started seeing won’t understand I don’t know how not to be like that and telling yourself that “people like you, you are beautiful” is fine but its hard to make yourself believe it like how do I do that

  • bel

    I’ve never read something I’ve had so much mutual feeling on. Unfortunately my story isn’t the exact same, but I hate hugging, touching really anything.. And people even gave me the cold shoulder at school but I was ok with it because who cares what high schoolers think. But the only person I could do any physical touching was my boyfriend of 2 years. We just recently broke up and now I can’t hug anyone it freaks me out I’ll even start crying. I can’t think of ever being in a vulnerable state because I was and I became sad and hurt that I became vulnerable. I really hope to grow out of this, and I’m super happy I read this.. I just don’t know how to start without freaking out.

  • Vegalante

    I thought i was the only one who hates hugging, it makes me want to shrivel up. I will happily hug and kiss animals though!

  • Guest

    This opened m

  • Leslie

    This really opened my eyes. I relate because I come from the same kind of family, but I also have been raped and molested by “friends,” so I’ve got two things going against me. As I was contemplating this article, my 5-year-old jumped on me and yelled, “Group Hug!” Its so hard – I absolutely hate being touched, even by my family. I don’t want my kids to suffer like I do because I don’t touch them enough. Your article has motivated me to seek help. Thanks.

  • Monsterbite

    I still hate hugs from family especially, because I don’t think it’s real. I usually go along in the act so they think I don’t hate them (Which I don’t, I just don’t like hugging) It’s all a big act, because if I stopped it, they would wanna have a “talk” and I just wanna avoid any problems if possible with them.

  • cherfer

    Thank you for this… I thought I was alone.

  • Victor

    I have a real problem with people saying they are non huggers. It’s like saying “I’m a non-listener” or “I’m a non-empathizer.” Get over yourself princess.

  • LG

    I agree unless its someone i know and have a connection with already itvis creepy keep your hands off! I was recently in a situation where a person touched my arm, my hand even tried to wipe my mouth at a dinner whats up with this touching shit maybe they are the ones that need to explore their boundaries

  • WLC

    I recognize what you are saying, but I don’t think I’m really the one whose understanding needs to increase… i think those sorority girls and the other people this writer knew are the ones who need to expand and change their understanding and their behavior.

  • WLC

    I agree. Thanks for the support!

  • WLC

    To offer a different perspective, YOU are not AFRAID of anything. You just didn’t enjoy the little hugs and back-rubs that people like to give for some reason. You are fine and do not need to set a goal to change yourself. I surely hope I never learn to “love openly and hug freely.” I never, ever want that in my life at all. I want to remain as I am, someone who loves and hugs selectively. I am so delighted with the way I am already, I would not want to change it. Your changes are entirely your choice OF COURSE, but I am saddened to think that someone convinced you that your resistance was pathological and fear based, rather than thinking you were ok the way you were. If anything, why didn’t your friends work to change themselves to be more like you, and less huggy?? Does anybody ever wonder that?

  • WLC

    Wow, it sounds like those people at the Xmas party had some severe control issues they were trying to hide under the image of love. Would love to hear how that played out… love your perspective

  • WLC

    Nobody is to blame. Everyone’s nervous system is different. It is normal and healthy and good and right to not want hugs or back-rubs (another pet peeve of mine) I was hugged and loved plenty as a child, and just had to push away a lot, my whole life. My nervous system just doesn’t require that much input to feel loved, and it makes me feel suffocated. Kind of like someone who doesn’t need very much food and feels stuffed if they get too much. I’m awesomely happy the way I am, the the fact that people act all hurt when I ask them not to touch me just exasperates me. They should be extremely content with my reactions, as I am, and you should be very thoroughly happy and satisfied with your own reactions. Don’t worry about the hugs, you don’t have to like them from everybody, or even anybody.

  • WLC

    Non-huggers dont necessarily feel vulnerable, but they may feel suffocated. I wonder if you really found it hard to understand how we felt? I always wondered why people tried to overcome my resistance and why they looked so hurt or pretended to. So very odd to me. I would have thought people would have a neutral reaction to my resistance to a hug and maybe feel a little sheepish about themselves.

  • WLC

    Acergirl, you are so absolutely right and right on the money!

  • WLC

    That’s pretty snotty, Victor. Maybe it’s you who needs to get over yourself? If someone says they are a non-hugger, there is no problem for you to have. Your only reaction is to say “Oh, sorry” and then stop the attempt at a hug. Get over yourself, not-so-princely one. You are very much in the wrong on this, and you could technically be arrested if you force it with someone. Be very careful on this matter. Keep your hands to yourself.

  • WLC

    You are not alone. You have every right to be the way you are if you do not want a hug, nobody has a right to force it. Do NOT listen to the Victors of the world (poster above, terrible post.)

  • WLC

    You aren’t the one who needs help, not regarding the hugging. if you have had traumatic experiences in the past then by all means, get whatever counseling you need and want. But you should not set a goal of being more touch oriented or more comfortable with touch. there is no need for this. your children will not suffer if you do not touch them a lot. chances are they will breathe easier and be happier for the less touching. your counseling should be around your feelings, and your health, not around someone else’s foolish goals around touch and hugs. Peace and blessings to you.

  • WLC

    I have no idea why people are so insensitive, and want to impose their physical beings on you. And why they don’t understand, and why they don’t care. I find forced hugs to be very, very inconsiderate and unloving. Terrible actions.

  • WLC

    There is nothing wrong with you. If you are in the right relationship you will figure out how the physical aspect will go. You don’t need to set any goals to change. You only need to figure out what works for you. Peace and blessings to you.

  • WLC

    Nothing wrong with you. The problem lies with the compulsive huggers. They react wrong when people push them away. They should say “Sorry” and drop their hands to their sides and continue to talk in a calm friendly way to you. They should not experience any annoyance, any hurt feelings, or any desire for changed behavior from you, nor should they have any questions about your rejection of their hug. They should understand 100% and not have any negative feelings about it whatsoever. Anything else, and they are not really your friend.

  • WLC

    Lack of need for much human touch doesn’t necessarily have to do with feeling undeserving. It could be your nervous system just does not want the stimuli of the physical closeness and contact. That’s fine. There isn’t necessarily a deeper meaning. The only reason anyone seeks a deeper meaning is that the compulsive huggers keep demanding explanations rather than just saying “ok, that’s cool, you don’t like hugs” like they had ought to, and respect your boundaries.

  • WLC

    I feel like this is just a long defense of hugging? People can hug if they want to, of course, but regardless of the supposedly benefits you describe, some people just don’t enjoy the sensation and like to say no thanks. Are you arguing against that? Are you trying to persuade the non-huggers to ignore their own feelings and instincts and accept hugs? Or are you promoting the idea that hugs are so good somehow that the compulsive huggers should continue to force others to hug on the guise that it is somehow “good for” the non-huggers? Why the desire to dominate and change somebody? I read every word you wrote, and I will still push away people I don’t know. Even if I”m “missing out on benefits” I dont think I really am. I will only hug people I want to hug, and if I don’t want to, I will push away or tell them not to hug me or do whatever I can to avoid their “healing, caring” touch. Please be more considerate of others and their boundaries, preferences and desires, regardless of your knowledge.

  • WLC

    After all, what if I am faced with a similar situation? I hope by this point in life I won’t have peers who are so immature (I’m in my 40s) but if I realize they just don’t grasp it, what do I do? Just tell myself they mean no harm and put up with it? I’d rather sacrifice the relationships, sorry. It’s a shame, but yes, I’d rather lose all those people than tolerate their unwanted hugs.

  • WLC

    Nothing wrong with you at all. Just be happy with who you are. Don’t change for others.

  • WLC

    Sadly, I’ve had to put up with people who try to hug me or rub my back. I guess they think they are helping somehow? I go to a rather touchy feely church. It is the only part of the church I don’t like. Several people tried to rub my shoulder today, I think because they knew I lost my mom. A quick hug would have been fine, but these are the kind of people who llike long, deep hugs and say “mmm” and hold for several seconds.Such a suffocating, unpleasant occurrence. They dont just clap you on the shoulder, they rub and just keep rubbing. I think a lot of them are under the impression that touch is healing or something (there may be reasons to believe that, but you shouldn’t force it on someone, you wouldn’t force medicine down someone’s throat would you?) Anyway we were told today that our minister is leaving the church in the fall. Several people had some tears about that. I had some tears. The woman next to me patted my knee then rubbed my shoulder and didn’t seem to be stopping! I said “Please don’t do that” and she acted like she had been burned on a hot stove! She had the decency to apologize, but she acted so shocked that I said no to her touch. Very weird! And I have hugged many people at this church, but they often seem a little puzzled when I keep the hug short, or show I prefer to shake hands.

  • WLC

    A rejection of physical touch and a fear of intimacy may not be the same thing. Sort out in your head what you really feel, and what you really want. You may be conflating two different things. Many people are more sensitive to touch than others, and for example many people on the Autism spectrum have tactile issues–and that is that. One doesn’t change them, one adapts to THEIR needs. If you want good friends but not a ton of suffocating hugs, try to maintain your best connections with the people you meet who DO respect your physical boundaries, and avoid those who don’t.

  • Cat

    Who can blame you? I understand the yuck factor. Just respect yourself and maintain your boundaries.

  • WLC

    Just don’t give in to others’ demands. Do what is right for you.

  • Cat

    Ask her first if she WANTS to “grow out of it.” It’s not a developmental problem or a maturity issue. Don’t set her goals for her.

  • Cat

    You are normal

  • Cat

    right on!

  • Cat

    Gosh, I hear you! I feel yah, as the touchy feely types say! 😉

  • Cat

    aw, don’t despair! you are normal! not everyone shows love this way! do what feels right!

  • Cat

    This is kind of strange, and suspect. There are a lot of scientific claims here. But even if you do have some backup on these, this kind of isn’t what the article is really about? I think it was about how someone wasn’t comfortable with hugging. If someone doesn’t like the taste of wine, for example, and you posted a long-ass treatise on the health benefits of wine…. what are you really trying to say?

  • Cat

    This is normal

  • Cat

    But not essential! Just be yourself!

  • Cat

    Be yourself! That’s cool!

  • Cat

    Hey, just be yourself! you don’t have to overanalyze it!

  • Cat

    Say, even though I am all about telling people to be themselves, I hope the compulsive huggers of the world don’t take that as an excuse to keep forcing hugs! Weirdies lol. Because that stops the non-huggers from being themselves! Learn to give people space! If you need space, take space! Don’t force yourself!

  • Cat

    Well, don’t know what to say. Kissing usually involves some other physical contact like hugging… so it’s kind of hard to comply with kissing and not hug or have that body contact. Good luck to you discovering and working out your own boundaries with a mutually respectful partner!

  • Cat

    Right on! just do what is right for YOU, not what is insisted on by others.

  • Cat

    Give yourself time and look at your own needs, not others’ demands!

  • Cat

    Right on!

  • Cat

    Oh i hear you! Why do people make such and issue over it? leave the poor kid alone if he /she doesn’t hug!

  • Cat

    Whoooaaa there Victor, you are making an issue where there is none. Hugging people is not the same as listening or empathizing. Some people are GREAT listeners and empathizers without being huggers, and some huggy people don’t listen or empathize very well… um, obviously? If they DID listen and empathize, the non huggers wouldn’t struggle so much. Um, Victor, do YOU listen and empathize? Do you? Are you HEARING what the non huggers are saying? And do you not care? I think there’s a big problem here victor… and it’s not with the non huggers. And that little snip of sarcasm at the end victor… there’s a problem with you, I think, and your attitude. Needs some rethinking. Take care, but DO think this one over, victor.

  • Cat

    totally get it, Idrathernotgiveyouit!

  • cat

    I hear you acergirl!

  • Cat

    Well, Jen, if your counselor made an effort, she COULD have given you an APPROXIMATE answer. A lot of things are at least SOMEWHAT logically explainable if someone gives it a shot!

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  • Cat

    But not everybody wants to work through it! Not even for health benefits! Don’t forget that not everybody is devoted to changing to a hugger!

  • Cat

    Just be cool with yourself. You are fine. Lots of people feel that way. The touchy feely types are obligated to respect your boundaries. If they don’t, you know they are not as good as they seem.

  • Cat

    oh my goodness yess! the stinky hug!

  • Cat

    that may be how they feel, mike, but how to get them to alter their well meaning but poorly directed behaviors? It’s almost as if they put their show of love over and above the needs of the beloved? how sensible is that?

  • Cat

    Oh WLC, I just resonate with that! People think I’m a hugger because I come across as enthusiastic, but it’s just too much for me! You put it into words so well!

  • Cat

    mike, i’m not sure it’s about whether wlc understands or not, but whether or not the huggers understand… and whether they are willing to hold back even if they don’t understand. Don’t you think?

  • Cat

    wait… i’m baffled and buffaloed. you are accepting the wishes of those who have made fun of you?????

  • Cat

    ???? Isn’t self love about figuring out what you want and standing up for it? I thought I was showing more self love when I was true to my own feelings and said “no thanks” when I didn’t want a hug???

  • JimJamJum

    I think you are right, Cat

  • JimJamJum


  • JimJamJum

    Yes! Human diversity is NORMAL!!! THANKS FOR POINTING THIS OUT!

  • JimJamJum

    With you, bro

  • JimJamJum

    Why overcome? Isn’t it cool for people to just be who they are and not hug?

  • JimJamJum

    WHOA NELLIE! BREAK SOMEONE INTO HUGGING!! DAMN! Anyone who tries that crap with me ends up on the freakin’ floor! Why would you want to violate someone’s will that way? What you get out of it? Wat’s da matter with everyone??

  • JimJamJum


  • JimJamJum

    whoa, sounds like you are trying to force yourself to change?

  • JimJamJum

    Whoa dude you cop that attitude with the wrong guy there could be trouble brewing. and if you only try that with women for your nefarious motives there could be ten tons more trouble brewing, princess. This is not cool.

  • JimJamJum

    be cool, cherfer. you are cool

  • JimJamJum

    just do what you want, bro. whatever works for you. not on anybody else’s say so.

  • JimJamJum

    are you kiddin me?

  • JimJamJum

    So? I think people were talking about their likes and dislikes bro.

  • JimJamJum

    Do what is cool for YOU, sis. Nobody else’s timetable or demands. No need to feel terrible. Nobody has a RIGHT to a hug from you. Sheesh some of these folks are well meanin sorts but some of them givin me the CRREEEEPPSS!!

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  • JimJamJum

    Just do what’s cool for you sis! Don’t change just on someone else’s say so! If you really wanna change that’s cool—- but if you’re changing cuz other say so that’s a shame… some of this stuff does give ol’ jim the creeps!

  • JimJamJum

    Sis, change for the sake of change don’t mean better. Only change if YOU want. If you don’t like to hug and wanna pull away, that’s cool, that’s all good.

  • JimJamJum

    Nothin’ weird about non of it sis, it’s all cool, you don’t gotta hug no one unless its what YOU WANT. Different cultrues different about this, and it’s cool. As long as the one who doesn’t want touch is let alone, its all cool.

  • WLC

    I agree it’s rude

  • JimJamJum

    whoa tight is good?

    Only if is ok with you sis, not cuz someone else said so.

  • WLC

    listening to my body is what I ALWAYS do… and my body says no… and people seem to think it’s an ok idea to argue it out with me. Sigh.

    My only struggle is with the people who don’t listen to me. I don’t struggle with myself over it whatsoever.

  • JimJamJum

    Hear yah, bro, sis, whoever you are. You’re getting respect from old Jim. Maybe if we knew one another well, there’d be a hug, mebbe not… all depends. you seem the sensible sort, you do.

  • JimJamJum

    Dam, you push people????? Not workin with you or anyone like that ever sorry, sorry, but no

  • Cat

    It’s too much! Why not just let them alone?

  • JimJamJum

    Trust yourself, sis

  • JimJamJum

    be cool with you, bro, sis, whoever you are, you dont gotta change for no one just stay you or change for you, but for you.

  • sammy

    I wonder if Victor is just trying to show love and somehow just chose non loving type language? could that be? or am i trippin?

  • JimJamJum

    Hey sis, its all about what is cool for you. nobody should violate that, nobody.

  • Victor

    Lots of anger here. Did I say I would force a hug on anybody? No I didn’t. What I said was that feeling you can simply make the judgement “i’m not a hugger” is not enough. You must ask yourself why you are not a hugger. Let me ask…has anybody ever seen a toddler who is “not a hugger” if you had you would probably wonder what is wrong with that child and seek help and yet, if an adult says “I am no a hugger” it is somehow alright to proceed without examining this. I am not saying there is a right and a wrong, I’m just saying that it is something worth examining because to say you are suspicious and/or leery of human contact is something to look into further. Oh…and please save the hostility for somebody else.

  • JimJamJum

    Dude, victor, i think people were seeing you as the hostile once cuz of your phrase “get over yourself princess” that would brew hostility right then and there if you said it outright. and dude, true, it is ok to say “i am not a hugger” and leave it wholly unexamined. Totally cool! It is all right to proceed without examining bro! cool!Nope, no need to look into, if someone wants to chat without physical contact totally cool! don’t judge others for being “hostile” bro you truly brought it on yourself with that “get over yourself princess” comment, that’s what did it for me! If it weren’t for that little snide remark your post would have had a totally different tone!

    I also read like some comments were deleted or something i think there were several people who had something to say and i thought they were rather gently correcting victor–maybe they were a little stern but bro, isn’t that ok? where are the other comments? did voctor delete them cuz he didn’t like them? is he able to? so not cool! Victor, bro, just chill!

  • JimJamJum

    And true, bro, saying you “have a real problem” with people who say they are not huggers, people might have read that as hostile yourself and didn’t see the gentleness in it. They might have thought you wanted to hug people who didn’t want hugs and were judging others. Your words, bro, I think brought out the sternness in others. But they are cool! you can be too, just chill. I think sammy was pretty gentle on you, bro

  • JimJamJum

    See I think Cat is being pretty cool. Maybe a little stern, but nice. No?

  • ballcapdad

    I have noticed that adults are in a really different place developmentally than toddlers are. So does that mean you are suggesting that people who need a lot of hugs are closer to an earlier developmental stage, where as the non huggers have grown and developed beyond that stage?

  • supermom

    toddlers have different needs than adults, and different from child to child too though, and I have seen many toddlers have wriggled away from hugs quicker and gotten down on the floor to play and be independent.. others seem to want to cuddle more somehow.

  • ballcapdad

    I agree. People need to respect your boundaries without question! That whole thing about “intimacy issues” is just weird crap developed either by the self help industry to make moolah, or, a rationalization created by the touchy feely types to allow them to put themselves in the right and not learn anything.

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  • ballcapdad

    True enough. People pushing and suffocating and trying to force love=NOT REAL. You are correct, sir.

  • Victor

    My point is not that adults should be like toddlers in all ways, my point is that toddlers exhibit a beginner’s mind and follow their instincts far more then adults who often follow rationality and, often fear, based upon experience. As such, toddlers tend to be more open to hugging and physical play and many adults seem to shy away. Why does it seem so offensive to people to say that, if you shy away from physicality, this might be a sign of deeper issues which you may wish to explore in yourself. Is it so frightening to even suggest that people do some soul searching? Are people just stubborn or afraid of what they may find? Also, why, on a site called “Tiny Buddha” am I experiencing such hostility? It’s all very amusing.

  • supermom

    oh, son, i’m so sorry you have experienced hostility. I don’t belive I have been hostile have I? well, I think if you reflect carefully on what others have said… and I have looked at them carefully– is I think you did use a couple of phrases that sounded pretty harsh and sarcastic–to other eyes and ear anyway– saying “get over yourself princess” seems to have tripped people off. It was read as critical or sarcastic. Believe me when I was a young one it might have tripped me off me too. But not so much now.Maybe you didn’t intend your tone to come off as it did, son. I don’t think others were hostile quite, really, I think I agree with the guy who described others as “stern” I would read it as more stern than hostile, and I think they were stern as they read your phrase as sarcastic, rightly or wrongly. I don’t think it’s amusing per se, I think it’s a good lesson in communication that can go good or bad.

  • supermom

    But I also think that implying that others have “deeper issues” can be read as judgmental or arrogant. If I said you had deeper issues to explore because you weren’t more receptive to others’ critical response, how would you feel, son? I think that if someone says to you “no thank you, I don’t want that” to anything–be it a hug, a political flyer, a ticket to a show or a cup of coffee–it can be read as anything from arrogant to just plain oddball to suggest that they have “deeper issues” and it may seem insulting, even if you don’t intend that. I think what you may have–forgive me saying this–“deeper issues” with is plain old communication skills, son. I think you could reflect deeper on your own assumptions and your use of words, and examine the impact they are having on others–not just assuming others are hostile if they get a wee bit impatient with you son. And it’s not so much amusing per se as a fantastic potential communication lesson if you are willing to reflect deeper and learn from this, son. Blessings and best wishes.

  • cat

    I mean, I just think the most important thing is integrity and self respect. No means no.

  • Cat

    I think the most important thing is integrity and self respect. No means no. Upfront honesty is even more important than after-the-fact second guessing oneself. So I don’t think the need for the non huggers to do any soul searching is all that apparent. I guess they could reflect on ways not to be too self conscious when hugger-muggers get offended–learn to ignore the anger and irritability of those like Victor, and learn to ignore the insinuation that they need to “explore deeper issues if they shy away from physicality” basically for the non-huggers to develop the kind of insight and confidence they need to be immune from such advice. And to have the little sarcastic asides that are at the end of each of Victor’s rants–well to just be immune to that sort of thing, that’s all.

  • WLC

    I guess an even clearer and truer idea is for people to just trust their instincts, and if their instincts tell them to shy away from the hug, to just trust that–not owing any explanation to anybody. That should be applauded, I think, that trust in the instinct and the integrity and self respect that goes along with setting boundaries and sticking up for them.

  • WLC

    What a shame you have to be in such a battle to have your preferences respected. If you felt able to speak up, you might feel more strong and free, but I know how hard things can be (to confront people around many topics, not just this one) Instead of cooperating with our wishes people argue and resist. Of course, you end up feeling taken advantage of (potentially, not to put words in your mouth) and you rob them of the opportunity to improve. But if they are anything like the people I have known, the aren’t interested in improving. They just want what they want. Sigh. Hang tough!

  • Cat

    I think listening to your body sounds like a plan. And if your body says no–NO MEANS NO AND IS NOT FOR ANY ARGUING OR SECOND GUESSING HERE!

  • WLC

    I have to admit borrowing some phrasing from another poster that is making good sense to me–not meaning to plagiarize just paraphrase

  • Smirkin’Merlyn

    Well, so much of this discussion fascinates but also puzzles me. I mean, I think most people who avoid hugs do so due to the inappropriateness of the situation they are facing. No? And it’s always been my impression–can you call it an impression? It’s always been my observation of fact, knowing people as I do, working with and observing people for so many years– that the real intense huggy types are very very needy. Those who resist hugs tend to be quite self reliant. Those who RESENT having their hugs resisted are SUPER SUPER needy. Like they feel bad all the time and “need a hug” with regularity. I think the non-huggers tend to feel pretty good or damn good, and the excess hugging throws of their equilibrium or something. The only time I see the non huggers looking shy or insecure is usually when they are faced with a situation where hugs are demanded and their resistance is not accepted.

  • SorryAri

    Just give yourself time, and make sure things stay on your terms.

  • SorryAri

    Hey, you yourself are OK-the trauma though, the assaults, those are seriously destructive elements in people’s lives and you need support around that. You are not alone. You may feel alone, but millions of people have survived such awful occurrences and heal their lives. Seek support groups and only the kind of therapy with someone who has experience with trauma. Good luck to you, and blessings.

  • SorryAri

    I think it’s really risky to judge people and say they have “deeper issues” unless they repeatedly and proactively DO something really bad TO you. If all they do is pull away from a hug it’s pretty insulting to judge them and judge their mental state. On a site called “tiny buddha” it’s shocking and dismaying to see someone like Victor say “get over yourself princess” that was very poorly worded and did not sound well intended, it sounded judgmental. I also find myself wondering victor are you qualified to assess someone in that way? Do you have any mental health credentials whatsoever? A good counselor would NOT take a judgmental attitude like that towards someone for just saying “no”. And I think maybe it’s that someone– women I assume from the use of the word “princess” (I hope you aren’t calling men princess, which might provoke genuine hostility) but I think maybe WOMEN dont’ want to hug VICTOR and VICTOR is offended and sarcastic and hostile in response. Anyway I wish you well and hope you are making progress in your own therapy and learning about boundaries. Blessings.

  • Victor

    Hello Ari…let me first address your point regarding “get over yourself princess”….while it may have been a bit flippant, it was meant to say that many people who say they are not “huggers” may wish to explore the reason why – without self-judgment and simply for their own mental health. It is also meant to say that feeling uncomfortable in close proximity to others may indicate some deeper roots of unhappiness that one may wish to examine – versus celebrate (which is what this article and many of the commenters are doing). As to your ad hominum accusation out in left field that “maybe WOMEN don’t want to hug VICTOR and VICTOR is offended”….doesn’t this seem a bit inappropriate if not far fetched. Following your logic, anybody who sees the act of physical connection as important and feels that those celebrating an aversion to closeness may indicate some deeper unmet need makes that person a man who has been rejected by women and is bitter. Ari…where is the causation in this? Isn’t it far more plausible that I have gained much in my life from close physical connection to many people – many of them women – who have only supported my deeply held belief that hugging is integral to a happy existence? You may wish to think about these things the next time you make unfounded and incorrect assumptions. Namaste.

  • np

    I read the top 20-25 comments, so my apologies if it was suggested before, but I do believe that if s child was held lovingly from babyhood on, they would not develop aversion to hugs. And parenting is often culturally influenced. I believe that there is no genetic or geographic predisposition to like or dislike hugs, I’m convinced it’s nurture. If your parents never hugged each other or you and never said I love you, it will be very unnatural for you to do so. And the other way around. Except, science shows that physical contact is essential for a healthy cognitive and emotional development. All apes have rituals/habits that involve stroking, hugging, looking for lice, carrying the young. That’s natural. But man has alienated himself through the centuries. I’m fearing it will only get worse actually, with the new technology keeping us even more separated…. i know many introverted people who love to hug, so it had nothing to do with that. Hugging is a way to release endorphins. That’s all I wanted to say.

  • Elizabeth Ann Ewing-Casalaspro

    I feel like I’m going to throw up when someone hugs me sometimes and other times I just feel like its my space.I really don’t know why I’ve always felt like this.

  • Smirkin’Merlyn

    Well, You’re off-base just a little. I’ve known many people who were hugged a lot as children and they just don’t like hugs. Many of them have some traits a bit like Asperger’s but not all of them, and none of the people I’m thinking of are full blown autistic or anything which is a different story. But the truth is, people’s nervous systems are different and people have different levels of sensitivity to different things. Also, people develop different ideas (from many and varied experiences) as to when hugs are appropriate or not and with whom. So if someone doesn’t like to hug, no examination is really necessary, or analysis, just leave them alone and don’ try to figure it out. Respect their boundaries without question and remain cordial and don’t pry.

  • Smirkin’Merlyn

    Aw Victor, I think you walked right into that one. I guess you’ve had a learning experience about the flippancy of your tone, and how it comes off in writing. But I have the feeling, mainly based on the clarification you just offered (and thanks for that) that if you are running into self-centered people in your life you are playing right into their solipsism, as you call it, by over-analyzing them and making things about them. For the truly self-centered in your life, you are playing right into their game by giving them far too much of your brain space (a healthier and safer move is to shrug it off and pay no further mind, if someone doesn’t want to hug or whatever it is.) For those who just want to enforce boundaries for whatever reason, and who aren’t unusually self-centered, you making them the center of too much of your analysis makes you come off as obsessive and judgmental, Thus just firming up their assumptions “phew, setting boundaries was the right thing to do after all! This victor guy is he for real?’I know that’s how people think because I’ve been a counselor for years and have heard it from many points of view….

  • Smirkin’Merlyn

    I guess what I’d say is, if the touching is integral to your happy
    existence, then so be it, but only with people who share your feeling.
    For those who don’t, it really isn’t necessary for you to impose it on
    them or define it for them. For many, proper respect and courtesy and
    boundaries are essential to the happy existence, and whatever touching
    takes place in their lives is set only in their intimate relationships
    or family life or whatever, and doesn’t include others, and that’s ok.
    Give people space to be themselves, and don’t let it take up so much of
    your brain space. And don’t assume people are going to want to analyze
    themselves just because you are dissatisfied with them or how they live
    their lives.

  • JimJamJum

    Dude bro, Ari’s logic didn’t seem so far off to me, made good clear sense. What Ari said was not far off my impression too dude! You callin people princess and all that and saying they have issues to examine comes off almost like you are criticizing them. Bro, I think that’s the full explain on why people have challenged you man. Peace out.

  • HeyVaree

    Friend asked me to look at this and I am surely fascinated. I am complete outsider to discussion so patience with my questions. It seems intense and perfectly fascinating. But puzzling as well. In my little corner of my society is understood that decent people not touching each other unless extreme years of knowing and many hours conversation and families know each other. Recognize your society is different but confusing as no clear cut rules only fierce discussion. I can also see even if hugging finds the norm, here, is not for everyone (In my social class hug is not much done and people are happy and peaceful) so I can see some people in a hug-like society may peacably opt out.

    So here is where my questions lie and again pray for patience. I will ask basic questions of Victor am puzzled by last post. Why is not hugging seen as self centered? (I thought small American and Canadian children who demanded hugs were self centered I am surely not mistaken?) Why is asking for no hug considered self centered? Why is saying no thanks a sign they think the world revolves around them? Why is a sense of discomfort with hug seen as a sign of deep unhappiness??? (as opposed to a normal response???) Why is Ari’s challenge viewed as an attack? I am puzzled by entire sentence starting with “following your logic” it seemed like it was not following Ari’s logic but Victor’s logic, what he believes in? And not sure why aversion to physical connection is unfortunate? (does it not depend on who and what and on context? as in my world but rules a little different?)

    I am sorry I am confused. Ari may have been wrong in assumptions or conclusions, but his/her logic itself seemed… not bizarre. To ask the final quesiton…. What of hugging being integral to happy existence? What does that mean? Do you mean for you personally or for everyone no matter how they say they feel? I am surely confused. On my own, I would assume that some people are happy with many hugs others not. I would not assume, based on my current humble knowledge, that everyone was happy with hugs and that people who said they were not happy had a problem? And instead of listening to how they say they feel, you try to make them fix their problem so they are more like you–because the way you feel is the right way? You are right and people who feel different are wrong, and must go through painful self examination to change and fix themselves to be more like you. Only then will they be ok. Is that what you mean to imply or am I even more confused??

    Not to insult you Victor I pray your patience, just am fascinated and very confused by your statements is all. By everyone really but I don’t think Ill understand any of it until i understand yours. Patience and peace.

  • Savannah

    I know you do believe, but I don’t know if there is a way to research it broadly. I can tell you for a fact I was held and hugged A LOT as a baby, very lovingly, and developed an aversion to hugs around age 2. Far most likely my nervous system just being overwhelmed. I felt suffocated. My father had Asperger’s. I don’t know anything mor about him. I’m sad to have to offer a pathology as a partial explanation, as if others wouldn’t just understand and accept differences between people. Very sad. IN fact I think Asperger’s is less about a disorder and more about society not accepting their differences. Anyway in my family though people seemed to want me to be more huggy, they praised me as “the independent one” and I was accepted and valued for who I was. I was lucky, I guess. Out in th world, it was not so easy. People wanted their hugs they wanted them, and what I wanted be damned. The tantrums and gossip about me for just saying “no thanks.” Phew! Suddenly hugs started seeming not so loving. They weren’t about kindness to me, but people meeting their own selfish needs.

  • Savannah

    You are not alone! Not by a long shot! Stay strong!

  • Savannah

    I posted a link below but it’s waiting moderation. I don’t know if that’s actually allowed to post links sorry I didn’t mean to do anything wrong!

  • Lisa Claypool Wilson

    Sometimes people try and I say, “I don’t consent to that.” Loud enough to turn heads and get witnesses. That way I lay the groundwork for assault charges if they persist, or a defense claim if I react badly. That’s how I think of it, defensively.

  • Steve

    It’s sad that the author was convinced she was the weird one. On the one hand it’s great she found a change she liked, good on her, but I feel like the tyranny of the huggers is unfair and has to stop.

    Nobody is weird because they don’t want unwanted physical contact or invasion of personal space. Fortunately I live in a country where people are more appropriate and keep to themselves unless there’s actual cause for the contact. Because of that I can actually endure the few seconds embrace with close friends when they do occur.

    I might be weird though, I can even find my girlfriend crawling all over me when we’re on the sofa kind of annoying, especially when she gets in my face, it’s like FFS woman, keep to yourself, leaning on me is fine, holding hands is okay I guess, but get off my lap and stop trying to smother me aaargh!

    You’ve probably guessed I’m not touchy-feely but I won’t apologise. Call me cold, be insulting or abusive or whatever. The world is a big wide place and there’s plenty of room for all kinds of personalities. Some of them aren’t weird grabby searching hands that can’t stop themselves from feeling up other people, thank god.

  • Fe

    Unfortunately I dont like hugs because I do connect touching of any kind with intimacy…I dont like touching ppl at all unless we have had, are having, or I want to have a sexual relationship. Those are the only people I feel comfortable touching. I have always been this way. I don’t want to touch family but I do hug them when they want to because its important to them but it gives me the heeby jeebies…I have no idea why I am this way though.

  • Clearview

    Well, nobody answered you, and I feel like you may be from another culture? So in American culture it’s a little complicated. The touchy feely types seem to dominate, but not every American is comfortable with that. Age, region of country (America is geographically sizable and the different regions offer distinct subcultures) ethnic/cultural background, social class and family culture and individual experience and personality contribute significantly to the diversity in every area of life here in the USA, including people’s feelings and behaviors around physical contact.

  • ZS

    Have you changed yet it’s been three years?

  • CatchYouLater

    I think it’s just hard for someone like Victor to see that he’s done wrong by being so critical of non-huggers. I’m sure he and everyone else really knows better and knows to respect boundaries.

  • CatchYouLater

    Right on. I think some people like Victor and a few others above have a hard time seeing they have done something wrong by being critical of non huggers, or even like the sorority girls in the original story, forcing the issue. They have their minds made up and assume they are doing right somehow. I think most people really know better and do respect boundaries and don’t pressure others. However, as a child I ran into pressure and criticism over my boundaries. It’s almost as if people wanted me to be different somehow! Like more affectionate, like themselves somehow! People are funny.

  • CatchYouLater

    You are totally right to set boundaries and choose for yourself who you will share that level of intimacy with. Remember, nobody is entitled to a hug from you, no matter how much they feel they are. I go to a church where people are very huggy and are sometimes insensitive to boundaries, but most are not.

  • CatchYouLater

    The problem with this is it almost sounds like you are trying to persuade people to accept hugs even if they don’t want to????

  • CatchYouLater

    I totally run into th same thing! I also go to a very huggy church, and people can push it at times. But not always!!!

  • CatchYouLater

    You could just let her stay the way she is? No demands, no criticism? If you have the kind of intimacy you want in a relationship, why do you need more in public? If you don’t have the intimacy level you want in the relationship at all that’s another conversation.

  • CatchYouLater

    No, don’t ask for any changes from her. Let her be, don’t demand more physical affection and don’t worry about how your little boy “turns out.” If he’s not a hugger, that’s absolutely fine and you should have absolutely no problem with it.

  • CatchYouLater

    It’s also possible that they two of you adults are just in the wrong relationship. You want such opposite things. And you want to change her and make her uncomfortable, and she wants to be comfortable by staying true to herself but you feel deprived with a situation she recognizes as totally normal. So maybe ending the relationship would be for the best?

  • mel

    Hi. I really respect your ability to explore something that seems so alien to you at first. I remembered a lot of hugging in my middle school and being somewhat mystified by it. I never initiated myself, but I never had an episode as you described. A few years back when meeting a friend I hadn’t seen in a while she said something like “i would hug you but you don’t seem like the hugging type.” Its totally true, I’m not. She’s very perceptive and I felt like she could then tap in to all of my insecurities about things. We all have different reasons for not wanting things, or wanting them but not naturally being able to carry through with it. As the comments in this discussion show, there are many, many routes and reasons for people being the way they are. But still, THANK YOU for sharing. I just want to feel okay with things and with myself, and to actually feel better about human contact. I know that’s not where other people are at. I don’t want to feel anxiety about touching people or knowing when to hug or say the right thing. I have barriers that get put up somehow with people, and it takes a long time before they go down. I wish that period was shorter for me, but its a long period. When they go down its great. But its still weird. My sister and I will not hug, but otherwise I would say we’re very close. But sometimes it gets to a point and the thing to do seems like a hug, but we can’t. We don’t. Its odd and awkward to have such a thing with one of your favorite people on the planet.

  • LesterB

    Except for a very small number of people in my life, I don’t like hugging and I got damned tired of beating myself up about it. I once believed the line of thinking expressed in this article. Think about it: the implication expressed in it is: “this person that I am living in should be different than it naturally is”….Well, it doesn’t have to be and that’s a wonderful thing!

    I am a decent person (as, I’m sure, anyone reading this is). I have always tried to be respectful and considerate of others. I believe in the whole “Ahimsa” thing, but it can get sort of twisted if one doesn’t have proper teaching. If you haven’t learned about “Maitri”, I will share the concept here. It is a Sanskrit word meaning “unconditional friendliness towards one’s self” (or at least the “self” in the form of “this person that I’m living in”). Practicing maitri is an antidote for habitual self-judgment/rejection and fear of inadequacy.

    I’m happy as hell that I’m learning to accept “this person”, including its quirky need for space (even the irritation at the now rare moments when somebody imposes himself on me due to HIS neediness or ignorance of what is, or is not, appropriate.) Yes, I silently forgive him, but I immediately accept my own reactions, feelings, thoughts… And it may be that I will compassionately allow myself some sort of physical buffer next time I see that person…Carry a stack of books against my chest?…Jockey my way around him to quickly take a seat at the table before he can hug me? I’ll be creative if the moment calls for it, and enjoy the show!

    The Buddha was wonderful, no doubt! However, he was standing on some very large and ancient shoulders: The Vedas. Don’t think the artificially defined boundary of “Buddhism” contains the answer for everything….It doesn’t. If you’re curious, inquire further back into the foundation of Hindu philosophy >>The Vedas. It will begin to lead you back home, before there was even a need for “boundaries”.

  • LesterB

    I agree with you. I’m just reposting my general comment again here….

    Except for a very small number of people in my life, I don’t like hugging and I got damned tired of beating myself up about it. I once believed the line of thinking expressed in this article. Think about it: the implication expressed in it is: “this person that I am living in should be different than it naturally is”….Well, it doesn’t have to be and that’s a wonderful thing!

    I am a decent person (as, I’m sure, anyone reading this is). I have always tried to be respectful and considerate of others. I believe in the whole “Ahimsa” thing, but it can get sort of twisted if one doesn’t have proper teaching. If you haven’t learned about “Maitri”, I will share the concept here. It is a Sanskrit word meaning “unconditional friendliness towards one’s self” (or at least the “self” in the form of “this person that I’m living in”). Practicing maitri is an antidote for habitual self-judgment/rejection and fear of inadequacy.

    I’m happy as hell that I’m learning to accept “this person”, including its quirky need for space (even the irritation at the now rare moments when somebody imposes himself on me due to HIS neediness or ignorance of what is, or is not, appropriate.) Yes, I silently forgive him, but I immediately accept my own reactions, feelings, thoughts… And it may be that I will compassionately allow myself some sort of physical buffer next time I see that person…Carry a stack of books against my chest?…Jockey my way around him to quickly take a seat at the table before he can hug me? I’ll be creative if the moment calls for it, and enjoy the show!

    The Buddha was wonderful, no doubt! However, he was standing on some very large and ancient shoulders: The Vedas. Don’t think the artificially defined boundary of “Buddhism” contains the answer for everything….It doesn’t. If you’re curious, inquire further back into the foundation of Hindu philosophy >>The Vedas. It will begin to lead you back home, before there was even a need for “boundaries”.

  • theo drebner

    This article reads little more than the struggles of someone whose authentic self as a non-hugger was broken down by those who didn’t care to respect their wishes and is now a Stockholm-Syndrome zombie batting for the other side. If you really want to understand how disturbing this article could appear to someone who is an avid non-forced hugging person, such as myself, just replace hug, hugs, hugged and hugging with rape, rapes, raped and raping.

    Hopefully, you won’t be so quick to judge us the next time.

  • Guest

    I think I’m the opposite…
    I think I might be afraid of rejection so I rather not show interest for close contact intimacy.

  • Paul

    Don’t you hate it when you are in the middle of a hug with someone, but you have no arms, and they have a sickle?

  • Paul

    Yeah! That’s the worst!

  • Guy

    I hate physical affection and it’s not because I’m “insecure” about it. I feel genuine disgust unless it’s with certain specific people (only 3). I don’t plan on changing any time soon I just wish people would respect it. Affection is subjective anyway not everyone shows it in a disgustingly sappy and touchy way.

  • Benni

    Hating hugging is not a fear of intimacy, its a respect for personal space. Nothing to ‘get over’. I hate being touched because I dislike the majority of people, and don’t want them maulling me. Old people really freak me out, they have NO respect for boundaries!! I swear Im going to buy a taiser… next person who grabs hold of me and wont let go,…. ZZZZZZZZAP

  • R Craven


  • R Craven

    You just prefer not to be hugged. There is nothing wrong with this preference. It should be respected.

  • R Craven

    Well said.

  • R Craven

    You don’t have to like it any more than you have to like cauliflower. There is nothing wrong with your preferences, and no need for you to question them.