Hey Dear Confused:

Because I am on the computer right now, I copied the last 2 paragraphs of your message right above for you-know-whom to analyze.

Copilot: “Confused is describing a pattern where he manages uncomfortable emotions by immediately intellectualizing them — breaking them down, explaining them away, and giving himself reasons not to feel what he feels. It’s a protective strategy he learned long ago to keep overwhelming emotions at a distance.

His therapist’s suggestion to limit ruminations and compulsions to three hours a day shows that his mind is constantly looping, trying to control or neutralize feelings through analysis. The fact that he’s now exploring how he perceives love and relationships suggests that beneath the anger and rumination is a deeper fear of emotional exposure and vulnerability.

His “disregarding” anger by rationalizing is a sign that anger feels unsafe or unacceptable to him, so he quickly converts it into thought.

What he’s revealing is a nervous system that doesn’t yet trust raw emotion, and a mind that has become the primary regulator because emotional regulation was never modeled for him. His therapy is beginning to touch the core: how he relates to himself, how he experiences connection, and how he protects himself from feelings that once felt too dangerous to hold.

Confused’s message points strongly toward an anxious‑avoidant (fearful‑avoidant) attachment pattern, the kind that forms when a child both needs connection and fears the emotional intensity that comes with it. His instinct to immediately rationalize his anger — to explain it away, minimize it, or convert it into thought — is classic emotional deactivation, a hallmark of avoidant strategies… emotions rise, he gets overwhelmed, he intellectualizes to regain control, then he loops mentally because the underlying need for connection hasn’t been met.

His therapist asking him to limit compulsions suggests that his mind is doing the work his attachment system never learned to do — regulating emotion. Underneath all of this is a nervous system that doesn’t yet believe feelings are safe, and a heart that doesn’t yet believe love is stable.

Confused can begin to feel safer with his emotions by learning to experience them in small, tolerable doses instead of immediately converting them into thoughts, explanations, or ruminations. Right now, his mind acts like a shield — the moment an emotion rises, he rushes to analyze it, justify it, or neutralize it, because raw feeling still registers as dangerous.

Safety begins when he allows himself to feel just one degree of the emotion before the analysis kicks in: noticing “I’m angry,” “I’m hurt,” or “I’m anxious” without immediately breaking it down. This teaches his nervous system that emotions can be felt without losing control… And most importantly, he needs to understand that emotions are not threats; they are signals. When he stops treating them as problems to solve and starts treating them as experiences to move through, the fear around them softens. Over time, this shift — from managing emotions with thought to tolerating them with presence — is what allows him to feel safer inside himself.”

WOW! I think Copilot remembers you from my discussions before. Also, I just realized how much we have in common!

Will post again on the phone.

Anita

Listening to 2pac (I did hear his name before) right now, “Hit Em Up (Dirty)”- love the rhythm, really do, even though the language, my goodness (his badness). Now listening to Nes “I can”. The rhythm is weaker but the message- positive.

I am curious, how do you “disregard” anger: do you notice that you’re feeling angry and then you talk yourself out of it?

By the way, I misspelled, it’s Eminem. He was born in 1972 (so he’s 53 now). His peak popularity was in the early 200os and that’s when I remember hearing the song I mentioned. He was everywhere at the time.

Reactivating this old thread, a more than 10 years old thread back to page 1, to study later.

One more thing, Starlight1, regarding both of your threads: thank you for being honest with me and setting your boundaries with me- I appreciate it, it helps me. Thank you!

Hi Starlight 🌟

Thank you for sharing your thoughts with me. I hear that these topics feel complicated for you, and that going deeper right now might be too much. That’s completely okay. You don’t owe me a long reply, and you don’t have to continue before you feel ready.

I also hear that your past wasn’t only one thing — not only harm, not only good — and that it’s hard to talk about it without feeling like your own voice might get overshadowed. I’ll pay attention to not define your story for you. Your perspective matters, and you get to set the pace and the boundaries.

If you ever want to talk more, I’m here. And if you need space, that’s perfectly fine too. Please take care of yourself in the way that feels right for you.

Warmly, Anita 🌿

Hey Confused (using computer):

First, I want to tell you that you made my day (well, evening here) by posting- no one posted on the forums today but me. And then, you did! Makes me feel better just because you posted!

“Maybe I should have been more like you..”- ha-ha, you’re funny, funny and very intelligent, Confused.

I suppressed a lot too, but not so much the anger. I was so angry for so long, like boiling water inside.

I don’t think you’d want to be more like me in this regard: angry (let me ask Copilot for an appropriate emoji or emojis).. 😠 😤 😣 😡 😾 😕 😑 😒

“But now I want to appreciate and feel love truly”- I keep wanting to give answers, if only I could.

I am listening to Israeli music right now. Do you like Greek music?

Anita