Good morning, Confused:

Now that I am at the computer, I asked Copilot to analyze your most recent post Analysis of Confused’s Post of 12 hours ago.

Copilot: “* Confused is trying to understand his own fear- He’s asking whether his fear of abandonment is about her specifically, or a general fear of being left, or a mix of both.

This is a classic anxious‑attachment confusion: the fear predates the partner, but once attached, the fear attaches to the person.

* He is spiraling into suspicion and catastrophic thinking- The moment he notices her profile is public, he creates a story: “She’s going to Metallica tomorrow…” “Why make her profile public today?” “Is it so random men can see her stories?” “Is she not who I thought she was?”

This is hypervigilance + insecurity + fear of loss, not evidence-based reasoning. He is scanning for danger, interpreting neutral behavior as threat, and trying to regain control by ‘figuring it out.'”

Did you notice, Confused, that Copilot said, “the fear predates the partner” and I said in my reply to you last night, right above, “the fear predates her”. Do you agree with that?

Next, I asked Copilot a question and he answered: “What are the actual likely reasons she made her account public? – Here are the most common, non-threatening explanations:

* She wants to share concert stories publicly because many people do that at big events.

* She wants friends who aren’t following her yet to see her posts.

* She temporarily changed a setting without thinking deeply about it.

* She’s excited about the concert and wants to share it more widely.

* She doesn’t attach meaning to public/private the way he does.

None of these imply flirting, deception, or disinterest.

His concern about her public account is not about her behavior but about his fear of losing her, and his tendency to interpret neutral actions as threats.

Next, I asked Copilot another question: “Will it better for him if she does leave him (it’s a LDR, he’s not practically tied to her, they only spent 3 days irl together)?

Answer: “In practical terms, yes, it might ultimately be healthier for him. They have only spent three days together in person, the relationship is long‑distance, and his emotional system is already overwhelmed and destabilized. His fear is not rooted in the reality of the relationship but in older wounds that this relationship is activating.

Losing her would hurt him, but it would also remove the trigger that keeps him in a constant state of hypervigilance. It would give him space to work on the deeper fear of abandonment that will follow him into any relationship until it is addressed. In that sense, the end of this relationship could be a relief rather than a catastrophe—though he cannot see that right now because he is fused with the fear.”

Next, I asked Copilot to improve on the inner child writing exercise I suggested to you last night.

Copilot: “Confused, there is a simple way to reach the root of this fear, and it doesn’t require analyzing her behavior or trying to predict what she feels. It starts inside you.

I’d like you to try something: imagine the younger version of you — the boy who first learned what fear and insecurity felt like — and let him speak.

Not the adult who tries to reason things out, not the part of you that analyzes her profile settings, but the child who felt small, scared, or unsure.

Close your eyes for a moment and picture him. Then ask him, gently: ‘What’s troubling you right now? What are you afraid of?’ Let him answer in the simple, uncensored language a child uses — not polished, not logical, just honest.

Whatever he says, type it out exactly as it comes. Don’t correct it, don’t explain it, don’t make it sound adult. Just let him speak. Your only job is to listen and write down his words. That’s how we get to the real fear underneath all of this.”

Copilot and Anita

Hey 🧠 Confused:

“‘Why did I get that feeling’?”-

Fear of abandonment (her leaving you for someone else)?

Good question, about putting yourself first, “What do I not do that I need?”-

Connect with Confused-the-boy who’s afraid to be abandoned, afraid 2 B hurt. Shift toward empathy for the boy Confused?

🤔🌿✨️ Anita

My goodness, Lella!!!! Miracles do happen!!!!!! I’m besides myself from excitement.

Calling me “my fellow human sister!” and “Love you girl”- Love you back girl, fellow human sister, thank you so much.

I’ll write more in the morning (late Thursday night here).

Double posting! As to your post before last:

I so relate to feeling something authentically and then doubting that it’s real (“u’re faking it”)

It’s a normal confusion that happens as a result of early trauma ( or a result of taking a mood altering drug, I imagine)

As to your most recent post: I think that the sooner you put yourself first ( I don’t mean selfishly, but in a way that’s healthy), the sooner 2026 will get better and better.

Does this make sense to you, really putting yourself first, like you matter most- in your own life? 🌿 # 1?

🐶 Anita

Wow, I’m not done studying this thread but I studied it enough to clearly see that my replies here were a few of my worst.

Not because I intended to harm, but because I was seeing- not Anonymous and her boyfriend at the time- but the child-me and my mother.

I was completely blind to Anonymous’s boyfriend’s abusive behavior simply because I unknowingly projected my child self into him, and I protected him from.. my mother projected into Anonymous.

And why did I do that? Because Anonymous was angry at him (although rightfully so) and her anger at him trigerred my Anger-Trauma: being the helpless victim of my mother’s repeating rage and unfounded accusations that I was not allowed to defend myself from.

Even though Anonymous was kind and gracious in her replies to me, the projection took hold and I couldn’t see beyond it.

Anonymous looked for help in regard to the situation with her boyfriend and I hijacked her thread and unknowingly made it about my unresolved trauma.

Wow. I am humbled 😔

No other thread makes it clearer to me how badly I sufferred from my mother’s RAGE and the devastating accusations she made against me, such that I wasn’t allowed to defend myself against, although I tried.

So, simply because Anonymous made (rightful) accusations against her then boyfriend, it trigerred me having been (unrightfully) accused as a child.

I will need to grieve and further heal from what I now call Anger Trauma. I will do so in one of my existing threads or in a new one.

I will now leave this thread alone and will not return unless by some miracle, Anonymous returns, or Lella, or anyone else.

👋🌿✨️ Anita

Hey 👋 Confused:

I am sorry that you’re feeling more numb than ever today, dysphoria and like a burden 😔

One of the questions you asked was “Why now?”- I think that you answered it previously, didn’t you? You said that she’s (I am paraphrasing) the best thing that happened to you, so kind, so attentive, so wonderful, the best girlfriend (although LD) you ever had, and that right before Nov the two of you talked about making a life together, moving to her country, living with her irl.

So, all that 1st time in a lifetime was a sort of shock to your system?

✨️ Anita