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May 23, 2026 at 11:12 pm #458125
anitaParticipantJust thinking this Sat night:
I may be catastrophizing, but this may be the ending of these forums, simply because it’s deathly slow and getting even slower.
This, here, is a place where I’ve been at since May 2015, every day (including during the 6- months during 2023 when I deleted my account).
Seems like tiny buddha’s forums, like any other website forums, are dying because social media platforms have taken over. (and I am not a part of it).
So, in my personal life, the irl taproom experience 2017-April 2026 has ended, and so did the Winery (2021- Dec 2025), and now, I realize, the tiny buddha forums I was SO involved with 2015-2026 are dying as well.
Anita
May 23, 2026 at 10:09 pm #458124
anitaParticipantR U still here, EvFran?
Anyone else???
May 23, 2026 at 8:16 pm #458123
anitaParticipantThank you, Thomas, for wishing me well and for saying I’m not doing anything to disrupt the forums.
I too hope that Laven is okay 🙏
I too wish more people participated in the forums. I think that what has been happening is that although millions (!) of people are coming across the tiny buddha’s blogs, advertisements, etc. (what you see on the “home page”), hardly ANYONE knows that the forums even exist-
Because the millions read what you see on the home page- not here, on the tb website- but on Facebook, Instagram and other social media outlets (as feeds, pieces of what you see on the home page). These forums don’t appear on the social media feeds.
I think that in the beginning lots of people posted in the forums because they logged into the website like you and I do, but over the years, hardly anyone does.
So the forums are in reality, tiny buddha’s tiny secret 😔
So, old participants in the forums stop posting over time (that’s normal), but unlike in the past, new people don’t join us because they don’t even know about the forums, and they’re busy communicating with each other- not on any particular website’s forums, but on social media.
Websites’ forum participation is a thing of the past 😔
At this point, I am bringing up really old threads so to learn from them, to see how I used to reply to members and why, it’s about my desire to learn about how I changed and am changing since I first participated here in May 2015.
I thought of sharing all the above because it may interest you, or explain things. Does it?
✨️🌿✨️ Anita
May 23, 2026 at 6:21 pm #458121
anitaParticipant* Edit: Good Saturday afternoon, East Coast; Saturday morning, West coast.
Well, now it’s 9:21 pm your time 🙂
May 23, 2026 at 11:13 am #458120
anitaParticipantGood Saturday East Coast Saturday morning, Thomas 👋
As you know, it’s been very slow in the forums, and like you, I wish more people would visit and interact here 🙏
I wanted to bring up your thread to the top of Page 1 of list of topics.
✨️🌿✨️ Anita
May 23, 2026 at 11:04 am #458119
anitaParticipantWhat a fun exchange, exactly 10 years and 4 months ago, between Seaisisland and myself. Nice to see that I wasn’t always analytical, clinical, directive and corrective!
I suppose nothing that was shared in this thread
(nor my communication elsewhere with Seaisisland or with Jock) reminded me of my mother so my trauma responses were not activated.It’d definitely be a miracle if either Seaisisland or jock ( previously Jack) will be reading this.
🌿 Anita
May 23, 2026 at 8:40 am #458118
anitaParticipantHi Mollie
You are very welcome 🙏 ✨️
Humphrey Bogart is most famous for “Casablanca” (1942), where he played an American nightclub owner in Morocco during World War II, a story about sacrifice, moral courage, and lost love.
I just looked up The Banshees of Inisherin (2022… 80 years after Casablanca), a dark tragicomedy set on a remote Irish island in 1923. With no warning, Colm tells (the devastated) Padriac that he wants nothing more to do with him and ultimately tells him that, if Padriac persists in attempting to relate to him, Colm will amputate one of his own fingers, which he did, but Padriac kept trying to reconnect with Cold, so Colm cut off four more fingers.
I am reading that Psychologically, Colm represents the person who retreats into isolation and self‑destruction when overwhelmed, while Pádraic represents the person who clings harder when faced with loss, unable to tolerate emotional separation. Colm cannot tolerate closeness and Padriac cannot tolerate abandonment. Fascinating, Mollie, I am intrigued!
Mollie: “I really am a dog person… not a cat person… because when I was younger a cat scratched me… I was scratched by a cat when I was about 10; and then bitten by a dog when I was 21!”-
Fascinating and I suspected you were scratched by the 🐱 as a child, and years later, bitten by the 🐶. The term “formative years” refers to our childhood years because that’s when we’re psychologically formed, and I suppose the scratching by the cat formed you into “not a cat person”.
Really a pleasure talking to you this Saturday morning. No special plans for the weekend. Hope you have a pleasant weekend!
✨ 🥰 🤍 🐾 Anita
May 22, 2026 at 8:20 pm #458116
anitaParticipantGood Friday night, Thomas.
I hear what you’re saying about the forum feeling quieter lately. Roberta is still around — she posted in my thread a few days ago. Peter tends to take breaks now and then, as he always has, and Alessa has simply been busy. People come and go for their own reasons, and it isn’t connected to anything I’m doing recently.
I appreciate you sharing your thoughts, and I hope you get some good rest tonight.
🌙🤍😴 Anita
May 22, 2026 at 6:56 pm #458114
anitaParticipantRegarding the “it” we, who grew up in “loud, obnoxious, negative and angry” homes (Adrian’s words) can’t face –
In my experience- IT is how terrible it really was growing up in a hostile home. We soften the reality we survived, making believe that the people who terribly harmed us are really good people who offered us a “good childhood” (Adrian’s words)
It’s what a child does to survive a hostile home :see the ones who caused severe harm as kind, nice, lovely people- it makes the child feels safer.
In adulthood, the make- believe doesn’t hold water, so the anxiety keeps going and going, changing shapes and forms, but it stays.
Because we didn’t face the truth- not because we’re not intelligent- but because it’s normal and instinctive for a child to soften reality, so to survive it.
I kept seeing my mother as a good person even though I was angry at her for so long, thinking of her as a Monster (not a Mother).
I figured long, long ago, as a child, that the fault was mine, that I was bad ( well, she told me I was bad, again and again and again).
It’s natural, instinctive for a child to take the blame (and the shame) even when not directly accused, blamed and shamed.
Taking that on feels more survivable than the alternative: that we are really (really) stuck with a person who is harming us.
Anita
May 22, 2026 at 2:12 pm #458113
anitaParticipantDear Thomas:
I reread your message and understand it better. Thank you for explaining how it felt on your end. I hear you — it makes sense that seeing older threads come up could feel like the newer conversations get pushed down.
I want you to know that I value the people who are here now, including you, and I never intend to make anyone feel overlooked. I’ll keep your perspective in mind moving forward. I’m glad you shared this with me.
🙏 ✨️ Anita
May 22, 2026 at 1:43 pm #458106
anitaParticipantHey Rich:
I just came back from a walk, and during the walk I remembered your screen name: NONAME! I then placed noname in the search bar above and got access to your past threads.
Your first post in the forums was on March 15, 2017. You were 25 at the time, attending grad school for counseling and planning on being a therapist.
Your last post- before your return today- was on Jan 8, 2024.
Thank you, Rich for remembering me and for your kind words, they mean a lot! And you are welcome. Communicating with you over the years has been very meaningful to me.
By the way, I sent you a message on April 20, 2025, in your last thread, asking about you.
Anytime you want to come back and talk with me, please do.
Your message made my day!
🕊️🌿✨ 🤍Anita
May 22, 2026 at 11:26 am #458105
anitaParticipantHello Thomas:
Thank you for your kind words and for your criticism. I appreciate it that you felt comfortable bringing up something that has been bothering you and for doing it in a respectful, kind way 🙏
I would like to understand what you’re saying better: you’re saying that when I bring old threads back to the first page ( of list of topics), your current threads/ posts get drowned in the old, so they are less visible to potential new responders?
✨️ Anita
May 22, 2026 at 11:17 am #458104
anitaParticipantDear Rich:
I am thrilled to read from you! I just spent a long time going back page by page all the way to pg 439, looking for your threads before giving up.
I will write more later.
For now, thank you for returning here with gratitude 🙏
Anita
May 22, 2026 at 10:51 am #458103
anitaParticipantBringing this thread up for later (it’s my own thread, maybe my first (in my previous, deleted account)
May 21, 2026 at 9:58 pm #458094
anitaParticipantHey ✨ Confused:
I see how confusing it is to recognize yourself in all those trauma patterns while still feeling unsure whether they really apply to you. That’s actually very common for people who grew up in difficult homes — the mind understands the patterns long before the heart feels safe enough to admit what happened.
What you describe with your girlfriend — feeling close, then suddenly getting intrusive thoughts or doubts — fits exactly with a nervous system that learned early on to stay alert, even during good moments.
None of this means something is wrong with you. It just means your body learned to protect you in ways that made sense back then (living with a violent mother as a boy and all the way to age 20) and those habits are still unwinding now. You don’t have to force anything or label yourself. Just noticing these patterns with honesty is already a big step.
🌼🤍 Anita
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