It’s the fear of unknown , fear of being alone all over the way keeps me away from taking a trip. Though I’m introvert person by nature I  don’t want to be alone. I don’t have friends who can accompany me on this. My parent or siblings are busy with their own schedule. And moreover they think I have many other things to fix before taking any leisure vacation. I know things like career, marriage, finances are important and need to be fixed but not sure how to and where to start with.

Yeah I try to not sound negative because I have heard comments from the people around me in past that i don’t sound positive and I have hardly talked good about anything. I have a fear of loosing people because of this negativity. Why I should bother others who are not very close to me because of my issues my thoughts.