I’m just a distant person – don’t take it personally.

My relationship with her is hanging by a thread, especially after learning she lied to my father.

Dear Anita,
While I am a mixture of both, I don’t follow christianity as strictly as buddhism. I have unintentionally been following buddhism for a long while before even knowing it what buddhism. With my christianity, I have simply been following the rule of “being a good person.”
However, ever since I turned 17, and at the end of 16, I had unknowingly started following buddhist ideals. I don’t know how it happened, maybe because I have a lot of time to myself considering I’m a shy only child, but I started to question why people are the way they are and why they do the things they do. I used to believe those who were snobby and bratty popular kids were just bitter because that’s how they are. Then I met my current partner and she told me herself that she was one of those kids but only did it because she wanted to fit in and not be an outcast. She wasn’t happy with it. This changed my mind and opened my eyes that people can really put on a mask without letting their true self show.
After this realization, well, especially after this, I’ve learned to consider the story of everyone I meet. Recently, a girl decided to sit somewhere else as she believed me and the people around me to be “weird.” I shrugged and simply thought there was something she wasn’t comfortable with with herself…of course, I could be wrong, but, I felt no hate.
I’ve been trying to be a compassionate person, and, while it is hard sometimes, I pull through. I simply wish to help people if need be, but, I do not always have an answer or they will not let me help them.

Ah- I understand what you mean. I am a mixture of agnostic christian and a new buddhist. I wonder where this path will take me.