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January 13, 2020 at 5:15 am #333067
She’s gone.January 20, 2019 at 10:15 am #275769
i meant that in more of a…”magic button” kind of way. It’s nice to get input on things but no one on here can…give me the money I need, or give me anything physical that would help. Know what I mean?September 10, 2018 at 6:52 am #224999
I mean, it’s something to look forward to – someone actually paying attention to my shitSeptember 9, 2018 at 4:37 pm #224841
The laundry bag was in reference to my previous post – the first line of it I think. The parents was, yeah, lack of a loving mother and no father in the picture.
And the blood was, yeah, from being raped.
Things are getting darker and colder, man.August 28, 2018 at 9:10 am #223405
I don’t care what the circumstances were for him- he’s a rapist and lower than trash – so is his fucking sister who was my best fucking friend but blamed me for it anyway.August 17, 2018 at 2:56 pm #221963
If you’re interested, here’s the original comic it’s fromAugust 15, 2018 at 1:07 pm #221629
Well, trust me, I’ll be on and off here for awhile.
I have many things to say and have no idea how to say them~August 14, 2018 at 12:42 pm #221483
Just a nickname~
…Unless you mean the title of the post. That was just playing on the fact that I use that as my nickname.August 14, 2018 at 12:20 pm #221475
The cow thing was actually from the cousin who blamed me for my rape.
When we were still great friends, I drew a picture with a silly cow in the background and it…sorta just stuck. Since then my username has been “acowinthebarn” because…the cow WAS in a barn in the picture. I’ve also learned to love cows since then.
Also yes, everything you said was what I said but a lot more to the point and easier to read.August 1, 2018 at 12:33 pm #219923
Fierce but terrified.July 31, 2018 at 10:25 pm #219797
Well I wish the fear would manifest more clearly instead of making me feel like a cat backed into a cornerJuly 30, 2018 at 9:40 pm #219539
Yes, I’m still in touch with her.July 30, 2018 at 8:32 pm #219527
Uh…existing and being satisfied with it, I guess? I was sheltered from the world mostly because of my controlling mother but also the luxuries being a military brat provided.
Mom didn’t have to pay bills since she was in the military so we could afford to live in comfort (although she…was still a stickler for some reason) but now I’ve experienced the world outside of that…
How do people even bother pretending to want to live in this shitty place?July 30, 2018 at 4:23 pm #219487
Never had the energy to start healing. Never thought I needed to heal as much as I probably do.
A lot of people referred to me as “strong” throughout my life so I guess…it…subconsciously made me think I didn’t need to heal? I dunno.
But let me tell YA. It got old and frustrating. There’s nothing strong about this shit.
I’m stubborn and persistent but I am not strong. I shouldn’t have to be strong at such a young age – I should have been having fun and being a stupid teenager. Instead I had to put up with abuse and other shit that made me age too fast but at the same time made me act like a fuckin’ 8 year old sometimes ’cause it was stolen from me when I actually was 8.
Only reason I haven’t keeled over is because I like a challenge and I don’t like to lose it.July 29, 2018 at 12:54 pm #219289
That is…a way I never looked at it to be honest. I mean I thought I was more or less healed but now that I think about it, I often find myself barely able to breathe ’cause the memories are just…overwhelming.
I think I know that I’ve lost a lot, and that a lot has really hurt me
Guess I never realized how bad it was affecting me.