All of you bring up good points. Guy 1 is making me remember I don’t have to be in a super stressful situation and that other men find me attractive. I’d always felt this but over the last 3 years have felt so overwhelmed by things with my current boyfriend that i’d forgotten what it a bit.

I love my boyfriend but I have been lied to, manipulated and treated less than I deserve. I know his desire to change is real. I know he doesn’t lie to me anymore. And he is willing to make any adjustments to work with me to get us to a health place. He has come a long way and doing his best to be the best father he can be. He works a high stress job and makes it to his kids every performance. He juggles a lot right now and I have compassion for him.

But still a small voice somewhere inside of me is saying that life would him may be filled with me having to be on guard and in the edge of conflict.