Hi Lilac

It is very difficult to shrug off comments that people make and especially from people that are close to you. As long as you believe that what you are studying is fulfilling to you and that you believe you can make a difference from it then you need to stick to your guns. Although most of us search for acceptance from our choices and want to get recognition and when we receive unkind and de-motivating comments we tend to wonder and doubt our choices but as long as what you believe is right and you really enjoy what you doing and it gives you purpose then who cares what other people think. nobody can live your life but you and as long as you are comfortable and happy then that is all that matters.

Warm Regards
Jacques

Hi Kate

I understand what you going through, I too have experienced many cases of anxiety and feeling alone. When I was young I was brought up in a traditional house hold and told that I have to get a good education to get a good job and earn lots of money etc. but as I got older I started realizing that there is a lot more to life than just fitting in to society. So my whole perception on life has changed and I know now there is a greater purpose in life. I started analyzing everything that I did and tried to find meaning in everything, but most of the time I would find nothing. And so my anxiety started, I never really felt like I fitted into a group and could never really connect with my friends as they do not think the same way I do, they are happy living in their bubbles where I am not. I have also found myself becoming more frustrated with things and I lose my cool for almost nothing, some days I have a clear mind but most days my head is like a thunder storm.

I can sense that you are a deep thinker like me and that you analyze everything, there is nothing wrong with that, the fact that you have become introverted is a sign that you have become self aware and that you are starting to see the greater picture and yes that is a lot to take in and yes it is normal to feel anxious and discontent, your mind is going through changes and realizations. We are affected by our surroundings and people around us, we are different and there is nothing wrong with that, don’t be so hard on yourself you are unique and special, don’t take that thought away. My advice to you is you need to find a place that makes you feel happy and go there as much as you can this will help bring on feel-good emotions. Next step is go to a place that has unfamiliar surroundings (so you can’t get distracted) take a pen and paper and right down the first thing that comes to mind, fear, hate, anxiety, financial, study related, whatever it is and take a few minutes and ask yourself can it be solved or is it out of your control? If it is out of your control then move on to the next thought by telling yourself that it is out of your control it will help you stop trying to solve something you can’t and that could help alleviate some anxiety. If it is however within your control don’t try and solve it that instant rather give yourself a timeline to solve it and move on to the next thought. If you find yourself getting caught up on negative thoughts look around you and focus on something in the area, for instance if you see a white wall tell yourself the wall is white, the mind cannot focus on more than one thing and so distracting you from the other thoughts.This has helped me and it might do the same for you.

Just remember, you are special and unique and be glad being who you are and being different from the rest of the people, and find places that make you feel good and go there often, once you start feeling more good than bad the rest will start falling into place.

Warm Regards
Jacques

I agree with you Alexey, maybe one day I can do the same. At the moment my mind is spent I need to break away from my current bonds.

Hi Kristy, the best advice I can give is to let your emotions guide you and not your logical mind, a lot of emotional thoughts are often conflicted with logic and the idea is to break the chains of your logical mind that are hold you down. I know that can be really hard to do, I know i’m also trying to do the same.

With warmth
Jacques

All my years I have felt different, I felt that i didn’t fit in to society. And now I know that I am although it hasn’t made it easier for me and I have become increasingly frustrated. I fear the route that mankind is taking is a route to destruction, I fear we are forgetting or have forgotten our roots. At the moment we are just another cog in this machine called society. And this machine is destroying everything in its path. Money has become our leader. We are neglecting our connection with nature and the bonds that once guided us. I am afraid to pursue my purpose as I fear the disapprover’s.