Thank you so much for the time and effort you’ve put into your reply Chad. It’s ironic, because i think you’re the one that ‘knocked some sense’ into my thoughts. I hate to agree but some of the stuff that you’ve said definitely hits the core. You’ve cleared out some of my unanswered questions that’s been bugging me for days & i couldn’t agree more with some of the stuff that you’ve said. He told me that it wasn’t me and that i have done nothing wrong. In fact, he said that I’ve done everything perfectly and that our relationship was the best he ever had but it was just the DISTANCE that opened up a cloud of doubts that ultimately led him to call it quits. As he quoted, he can be his ‘worst enemy’. I just wished he could’ve at least TRIED you know. Maybe, I’m just looking for a reassurance from him that despite his decision, he still loves me/loved me. Or maybe you’re right at the fact that perhaps im coming from a selfish place of expectation. And expectation sometimes lead to disappointments that therefore contributes to the pain im feeling now. But like you said we don’t all exist in the same reality & his reaction to certain things are going to be different than ours. I just have to accept that some things doesn’t always work out the way you would’ve hoped and that i cannot dictate/control what one should feel, think or do. I may need some time to process what just happened between us as the breakup is still fresh but i always believe that behind every heartbreak is a lesson learned.