Hello,
I am new around here. This topic sounds like an intimate talk so I apologize for interfering, but I feel something wrong about your therapist: he knows how you feel, he knows that he is a source of your pain..but he is not doing anything about it. I think he likes it, I think he don’t care at all about you, he is just feeding himself with your love for him, he grows big and that’s it.
Change the therapist, a female one, just a few sessions to see how it goes. Man ( no matter who they are) can be really life and energy suckers. And you should change him just because he is mean to you, ignoring what you feel for him. Transform your attachment in a positive hate : F..k of Doc, you pissed on me, I don’t need you no more !
My humble opinion….