I completely understand your point and I should have been more specific. These are some of the examples of the stalking: taking my trash from the bin and keeping it, hiding in front of my house, writing a book about me etc. At a certain point I was fed up and I started bullying her. I would make fun of her in front of other people and often ridiculed her. I treated her like a lesser person, like trash to be really honest. These events occurred when I was 14 to 16 years old.

In regard to my anxiety – I know that I have always had anxiety but that it was really triggered when I was 21 years old. I thought I had a medical condition, I started googling symptoms and believing them – for the next 6 months I literally thought I would die soon. Even though this sounds stupid, it really wasn’t. I think the chronic worrying started to form a foundation for other worrying. I now worry a lot about irrational things and I often have obsessive thoughts. I think about past events more in addition to worrying about future events. It’s like my brain wants me to think about things that I would rather forget.

I don’t hold anything against myself in regard to the bullying. After all, I was a young kid who didn’t know how to deal with such a horrible situation. No kid should have to deal with something like that. I would however, like to give this a place in my life and move on.