Thank you for your replies, I am so grateful !!!!

I love my job, but I am currently drowning in work so I didn’t got the time to answer you properly but I promise I will

I just wanted to let you know how my situation evolved …

I tried to distance myself as you advised me and for the past few months, all I felt was relief

However, I received yesterday 2 longs messages from her in which she seemed to pour her heart out…
I didn’t have the courage to read them yet entirely (yes, that’s silly) but some sentences appeared in my notifications messages.
She said she noticed I was fading out. And the tone of her text was kind of solemn.

She said she really wanted me to think carefully about what I was about to say (because I think that : 1. our friendship is important to her 2.it’s her way to of warning me that if I do anything wrong she will cut me off)

Since then, I am wrecked with guilt and I felt so anxious I couldn’t sleep last night …
How do I cope ?
Do I tell her honestly how I feel ?
Or do I just say that I am so busy with work (which is absolutely true) that I can not maintain a close relationship with her anymore ?

I spent the whole day stressing about that … And my therapist can not see me until the 21th of July ☹️☹️

Thank you so much for your help !! I am so grateful