well I never said it was about my mother, me and my mother Always had a fair relationship (not saying that she’s perfect, she has a dramatic trait to her that influenced me yeah, but my  problem mostly originated as OCD in teen years)

what exactly do you want me to share, however?:)

• This reply was modified 6 years, 6 months ago by Gaia.

I think something that affected me deeply were the not so positive social experiences in my teen years, I’ve Always considered myself adventurous and open-minded, it frustrated me a lot to be stuck with friends who didn’t value the same things or didn’t want to try something new or risk, now it may sound like I’m acting like a victim or blaming Others but it’s since I’m 14 I feel stuck and stagnant in a life that it’s not like I want and I can never find a solution to that, it makes me depressed. I felt somehow rejected by people I wanted to befriend, I’m social but sometimes I feel like an outcast or unable to really shine, like instead some Others do effortlessly.

I’d say she doesn’t take critics quite well, simply

it’s weird because I had a overall smooth home life, in the sense not Always the happiest but.. who does? Nothing truly remarkable, so why am I like this? I had a ordinary relationship with my parents, we don’t Always agree on stuff and more often that not I feel like their values aren’t necessarily my own values and sometimes I do feel trapped because still somehow I value a lot their opinion of me, althought I don’t Always share with them what goes on in my mind, cause quite frankly no one understands a lot and my mom, she’s caring and hardworking, but extra-sensitive and somewhat victimist, I don’t like a lot to share those things with her cause later, I feel like I have to comfort her too besides myself, it’s exhausting. But now, that we established that my suffering doesn’t make sense and that I can establish myself as a freak, should I got stuck  like this all my life? Oh well