Hi Colwater,
I couldn’t help it when I read your post. It is as if I have written it. Except that I am girl and I did confessed my feelings to the guy I like 4 years ago. We were best friends but after that everything changed. We both wanted to be ok with the fact that I liked him and continue with our friendship but it did not happen. He pulled away, it left me hard broken and from time to time we both pretend nothing had happened.
I think it happens to sensitive people, we fall in love too quick.
I am sure you will be ok. You seem to be a great guy and in no time you will find the one just for you and this time it wont be as hard for you to approach her. I believe that when two people are met to be together they will find each other no matter what.
Wish you the best!