thanks everyone.

I am just feeling all sorts of emotions, and don’t really know how to move forward. The thought of what he did is just engrained and the idea of him with this new girl is making me sick. I know he was bad for me, and I know he didn’t deserve me, but I just feel so empty and sad.

I have so much hatred towards him that I fear I will never get rid of.

Hi Anita,

Just to add some background info. We met in person before, and then the 2nd time (about 6 months later)  is when we got together. Over the course of talking to him for that year, we saw each other about 3-4 times during weekend trips etc.

I personally feel like he talked to me so long because he needed a female companion. He explained to me that he always had a girlfriend, and I was there for him this year through some of the most difficult things he’s ever had to deal with. I think when “he wanted me back”, he really just needed someone around for Chirstmas…really to be talking to a girl, and have that “girlfriend” mentality around the holiday.

When he first called me and I asked why, he said it was because he missed me. A few days later when I asked again, he said it was because he felt bad about the ways things ended. I think he just used me as someone to talk to.