thank you for your reply.  I do not have friend in here except co-worker.  I moved from south of state to northern states.  I do not know anyone except my partner’s family member, friends.
I do not want to face the fact.. but I need to know.  All I wanted to hear from him that truth.
I’m sure he was having a good time with his ex.  It’s not okay at all but it’s okay if he tell me the truth.
He wants to spend time with her again?  He wants to go back with her?  If so, I want to know.
He wanna done with me because of I snooped the account.  This is not real reason, I think.  As I mentioned that he was okay until I mentioned about his ex wife.  So do not run away from me and use me for break up.  I just want to know the truth.
All I want to know from him that truth.

As far as unknown phone calls, I have not tell him yet.  I didn’t have chance when I talked him.  I contacted phone provider and all I get it 0000000000 number and no original call from, no information at all.  Only time and date I have.

If he dump me now with any of reason, I should be glad for it.  It may a gift from Santa!  🙂  This may a good sign to find out true of him.  He may dump me during treatment or he may not come see me when I’m dying.  I rather to deal with this now.
I found my tumor in my throat area.  I’m scared of I may lose my voice or may be really bad this time?
It may really easy one.  Who knows.
I’m so scared of my cancer and find out truth even though I need to know.