Thanks for your reply Anita, and yes I didnt assert myself at the time and handled it badly for my own part. I know I need to accept the decision he made and also be more assertive and open, at the time I couldnt foresee what I might plan in 4 months time, if I had known I would of asked for him to stay. Holding onto anger isnt going to help toward a resolution in any way. I am trying for the most part now to reflect on how I’m feeling and let go of this over the next few days so when he comes back I can have a discussion and work out how to move forward from this… Its just the letting go of the anger that is the hard part right now!