It has been a while since OP. Hope you feel better, and less attached to your ex.

It will soon mark one year after my breakup. I google the missing ex after one year, and feel this op was me. I don’t know if I actually accepted this breakup, because I miss him a lot and I haven’t completely killed the idea of seeing him again.

He never wanted to hear from me or meet me. I guess he is the kind of people who will just move on like I never existed, they didn’t invest, they may have gone on dates with us, but they never opened their heart to us, we were merely playmates, companies to them. When they got bored, they turned dry and cold to us and the relationship came to an end, such that they can have fun with their next playmates.

I feel stupid to fall in love with the man I didn’t really know, I should have dated longer before becoming exclusive or dated more than just him at the time.