We are going through a couple of the same things in terms of work and home life. But I am ten years older than you and let me assure you that you are very young! Way too young to feel so defeated. I wish I had started trying to change my life at your age. Stop feeling like too much time has passed. It just hasn’t, not at all.

One option is to start with a lower-stress job. I know someone much older than both of us, who started with stocking shelves in a library part-time, and she slowly gained confidence and security and later moved on. Build yourself up bit by bit.

What you do for your brother, and by extension your family, is so valuable. I hope you see some of your purpose in that.

But, of course, you’re entitled to want more purpose than that, and it’s great that you do.

Some say the best way to stop having anxiety about your life is to help others. You are doing that with your brother. Maybe you could also consider something like a course in education for children/youth with disability.

Until you find whatever occupation, there are those little things you can do to get through life one day at a time. Like taking walks, because regular fresh air and activity does good things for the brain, it’s science. And you can do these things alone if you prefer. And they’re cost-free.

Also, you are clearly able to express yourself, and clearly you are seeking an outlet. I would encourage you to keep writing. Your idea to blog sounds promising. You could even write about your insurance experience in your local paper.

I’m excited for you…