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  • February 22, 2018 at 12:30 pm #193957
    Denise
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    Thankyou Mark. I realise, it is the choices we make in life that lead us to this moment. I’ve already made the first step and have applied to return to college. 

    February 21, 2018 at 2:39 pm #193791
    Denise
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    Very insightful Peter. Who said that? 

     

     

     

    February 21, 2018 at 2:29 pm #193783
    Denise
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    Thanks Anita ( The Wise ) for your advice. 

    February 21, 2018 at 10:31 am #193743
    Denise
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    Dear Anita ( The Wise ) 

    Thankyou. Once again with the nail-hitting. It’s funny how unconsciously I do bully and beat myself up on my shortcomings. I do believe I deserve it. I tell myself all the time, I’m a failure.

    I live my life full of regrets and missed opportunities. My turning 30 has been a trigger. That it’s set off a panic, and recently, I’ve started to have panic attacks. I haven’t had to resolve to physically taking medication although they’re there. I’m learning self-relaxtion for my anxiety. 

    I think I know what I need to do concerning my education, it’s taking the first step and overcoming my fears. As for my job, I am considering leaving as it won’t fit in with possibly returning to college.

    I’d rather focus on something I genuinely want to do and excel, than working where I am. I can’t ignore what I want anymore. 

    I’d like to stay in contact with you Anita. It’s refreshing and good to talk to someone unbiased and objective. 

    February 21, 2018 at 9:15 am #193727
    Denise
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    Hi Anita. Thanks for responding. You hit the nail on the head with the aggression. I do inflict it on myself but it IS my own fault. My fault for not excelling in high school. My fault for being truant more than half of the time in school due to bullying and isolation. I let it affect my education which I regret. *If I Could Turn Back Time – Cher*

    My fault for initially going to college but, then leaving simply because it was high school all over again ( without the bullying-more isolation and loneliness, I was shy and quiet ) and couldn’t handle it. 

    Yes, I want out of my dead end job which I’ve been in for more than 7 years. Don’t get me wrong it’s gave me lots of experience and knowledge, but I never wanted this in the first place. I’m a social care assistant who works nightshift in a care home. 

    Yes I have researched what I need to gain academically as, what I achieved in certain subjects is below average. The thing is, I feel I should* persevere with the healthcare sector because it has possibilities, if I progress academically. Funny fact* I’m fascinated by psychology and human behaviour ( Forensic )

    But something’s holding me back.. or I’m just not in the right mindset. Or deep down I know, this isn’t what I want. I just seem to have lost myself over the years and, turning 30 has made me panic about my life and where I’m going/ or what the hell I’m doing. I don’t know what to do. *Lost with no direction – The Climb* Miley Cyrus 

    P.s. Excuse the music terms, they just felt appropriate ?

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