I did not read the above writings yet. I have a thought in my mind that I want to express as purely as possible. It is that anger used to be my default. However, a thought occurred to me a few years back that profoundly changed my life and made me finally move forward and gain some control on my anger issue. It goes like this. Let’s see……. ok, when ever I used to tense up and expect a bad outcome in whatever I was involved in, and it came to be, I would get furious and beat my self up. There in lies the problem.
We only gain freedom proportional to the amount of responsibility we accept for our predicament. I had learned to blame and beat myself as if I was blaming and beating a separate person. How could that separate person be so stupid? How could that idiot separate person be such a f-up. I wouldn’t do that if that separate person didn’t dwell in me. These were my unconscious thoughts. WHHAAT??? One day it hit me. There is no separate person. Anger was a cop-out.
Has this arleady been covered? If so I apologize. Anyways, I still do this on a rare occasion when I am hit with several difficult situations at once coming down off of a cup of coffee or what ever. But I witness.. I witness and watch. and I wait. I don’t punish like I used to.

Have a good day.