@anita: Ive always had a big issue with attachment. Even though as soon as I logically think about things I know that we are better off apart and he would have just caused me more heartache if I was to stay with him. But I am having such a hard time letting go… I defiantly would like to get to the root of the problem!

@Brav3: I am unable to change clubs unfortunately, but thankfully though he has not been around at any of the events I have been at though I know I will have to face him eventually. I’m not necessarily worried about seeing him but I have no desire to ever meet his new gf, who always seems to be with him… But I know those things are out of my control and all I can do is work on myself and get to a point of acceptance. I do need to remember that I was questioning things. I recently heard from a mutual friend that he is in a bad mental state currently. While a part of me feels bad for him, I should also be relieved about not having to deal with the mood swings and bad treatment, as I have been there before. All about the small victories…

@Evan: acceptance is the only way to go! It’s just a much slower process than I anticipated it would be 🙁

Thank you all very much for your replies!! They have been a big help. I’m thankfully in a much better head space now then I was when I made this post.. I’ll be ok eventually 🙂 just a long slow process..