Barbara,

It sounds like I could have written this post myself based on your feelings and insecurities. I’m the exact same way and treat my new husband the same way. I’m also asking who he is texting, or who is calling, etc. Is it because I don’t fully trust him?? Probably but I think it’s also because I’m afraid to trust. I’m afraid to be happy. I’m afraid to let him in. I’ve been hurt and let down so much in the past that if I let him in, if I let him get close to my heart, he’ll break it like everyone else has. As soon as we start getting happy, I find a way to start a fight and sabotage what we have going.

We have only been married 2 months tomorrow but sometimes it feels like a lifetime already. 🙁 But he has vowed to help me through my troubled past (read the “Letting Go” thread for that detail. I’m just hoping he means it.

If you ever need to talk just let me know…I can always use someone that thinks like me to bounce ideas off of.

Things will improve (at least that’s what I keep telling myself.)

Deanna