Hi! I agree with Ayesha’s answer. And I have felt the way you do write now, but try to focus..try to let go and let something else in to your life. Ask yourself questions..(how you can help yourself in this? )..what ever you – at least try…finally you will find a way! 🙂 and in the end it’s even better, you thought it will turn out. Actually, it is only my thought, but if you so desperately in love with someone…it can be dangerous for your own good. And like Ayesha said…Be happy! And celebrate You! Don’t blame anyone ( “..she started that”) it sounds like you blame her over your situation now…Be glad, you have a big heart full of love! Celebrate this! If you like to share your love…do it! Give it away to anyone 🙂 Give,give and give more..And believe..love is never ending source coming from your heart. You can do it! 🙂