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  • #391652
    Emmy8675309
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    Hello Anita,

    My input this morning: you adjusted well to your family and to abuse. Yes the bear has become accustom to the cage she is in

    Within the jigsaw puzzle, you are doing as well as anyone could, being in your place. But your hope, your magnificence is about exiting this jigsaw puzzle and giving yourself the chance to become who you would become if you were free from that one jigsaw puzzle.

    The question is at this point; How does the bear leave the cage? I’m aware i’m a bear in a cage, but its what i know. I didn’t learn to roam far, so any attempts to flee have been futile. I’m the bear who has been trying to find ways out of this and end up “blocked” financially, mentally, self sabotage (im sure at points). How does it end? How do you leave when the tries havent worked, you end up right where you started?

    Emmy

    #391632
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    Good Morning Anita,

    “for healing, the answer needs to be instead: this is not continuing, and the blame game is not a thing!        Yes Ma’am! I shall change my verbiage.

    “I don’t allow my mother and family to disrespect me, I’m also called ‘the bitch’” -if the information that you are called “the b****” by whomever is reaching you at the present time, then you are still being disrespected by whomever is passing this information to you. This is just a stamp now, a badge of honor, that i wear proudly. They can call me w/e I don’t think much about it. I brought it up as this was the case, and I thought it helped to understand the situation better.

    “I just walk away and cut people out, if they haven’t already cut me out” – did you cut abusive people permanently out of your life, including family members, or do you cut somut it. e abusive people out of your life for a while and then reconnect? Yes i am prone to letting people return, but they don’t get the same version of me. The return isn’t a hey we are best friends now, it turns into a cold exchange of hellos and good byes. The return is usually just stupid crap on FB and seeing these people when im with someone who is still friends w the persons.

    “I limit my contact w my mother, and she does w me as well. She doesn’t like me, so much so I really thought I wasn’t her kid and took a dna test” – that’s amazing, my goodness! How is the limited contact with her affecting you, and why do you keep any contact with her, if I may ask?  Tough question. I had cut my father out for a while, but i needed a roof over my head and he gave me one. I feel like i always still need my parents. Dad wasn’t around when we were kids, as much as you need. He has PTSD from war, and did some shitty stuff as a human, but was there when i called. Mom is a different beast, she is narcissistic. Mom was home, but never taught us how to be adults or do half the things to survive, well i should say live, as we all are scraping by surviving (none of us lives).  Limiting her exposure to me, and knowing how to work around her seems to work out ok. I get a call once a month or 2. or a text from her. My sister, that i talk to, gets called all the time, My other sister (heard this from the one i talk to ) had a 2 hour call about Jesus (mom’s new thing is the bible with husband #5). I know if i change the subject to myself she quickly wants to hang up.

    I guess the short answer is we were taught to be dependent on others, like she showed us growing up.

    Thanks Emmy

    #391618
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    Hi Anita,

    <b>-did you experience a permanent solution, or a permanent improvement in how you feel following the use of moldavite, selenite, sage, the rock lamp, and/ or any similar treatment or practice?  </b>”

    -so, you did experience temporary relief when using psychiatric medications. 

    Both of the above are correct, temporary relief, but then it all comes back.

    -Maybe your sister mistreated you, maybe the visit triggered your childhood trauma, resulting in these symptoms. There was an incident, however, It didnt involve my sister

     

    First thing to do is to no longer avail yourself to disrespect and abuse. You wrote: “mother basically makes everyone turn on me…  I’m blamed for everything” – is this still happening? 

    This is and is not continuing. I don’t allow my mother and family to disrespect me, im also called “the bitch” , for the simple fact I stopped letting people disrespect me. I just walk away and cut people out, if they haven’t already cut me out.  I say it does because the blame game is still a thing. I limit my contact w my mother, and she does w me as well. She doesn’t like me, so much so i really thought i wasnt her kid, and took a dna test.

    Thank you again Emmy

     

    #391609
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    Anita, So,  I may feel fine for a bit, but not a permanent solution? Is this why I felt withdrawal from the moldavite? As though it were another medication attempt, a little relief , but low and behold it returns?  Or is this my exhaustion entirely?  If this is the case, how is it that a person can “unblock” themselves? This can’t just be an endless cycle of suffering.

    I really appreciate the info. That all makes a ton of sense, i’m not sure what else to do to stop it.

    Emmy

     

     

    #391593
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    Not sure if any of this lends to the situation;

    I have predicted a few things, most recent my daughter’s pregnancy ( I dremt it a year before saved it in a note on my phone dream was 10/9 /20 I was told about 10/15/21).
    if I’m working at my computer and get upset the internet stops working or the program stops working.
    people seem to either like and love me OR can’t stand me. There is no in between
    I can’t think of anything else Rt now but that was all  stuck in my head.
    emmy

    #391578
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    Anita, All of the information you have listed above , is also the information I have.

    -” I wonder if you were, like I was, a very lonely, lost and scared child, hoping and waiting to be found and rescued by someone?”
    <p style=”text-indent: .5in;”>This is a definite possibility, not going to lie, parents were neglectful, mother basically makes everyone turn on me (I have 4 sisters I speak to one, one intermittently. I’m blamed for everything.)</p>
    -Depression is a 20+ battle, ptsd, anxiety, depression. I have literally been on every single depression med available and am not well.  I went to another dr a month ago, she gave me a BP med and something else to try, but that was the last of what she could try. I am still not taking those meds. I have low BP and it reduces BP, the dr never saw me in office, I don’t trust it. I’ll try another dr.

    – Bouts of exhaustion, not related. I get tired from depression, I nap daily. However, once in a while, w no rhyme or reason I get this exhaustion, it lasts a day or so, and is gone after that until it returns. It is so infrequent that I can’t pin point its reasoning. And it is so intense that it can sleep a day away if i wanted. Can’t lift my arms tired like i had the flu a month or something

    I’m not sure what else I maybe missing let me know if I answered all your?’s.

    Emmy

    #391557
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    Anita,

    Thank you for your concern, I had a Covid test yesterday, as I thought the same thing and was concerned; it was negative. I didn’t think about the moldavite until I got home, from the weekend at my sisters. I know I’m not on any medications, so I wouldn’t have a withdrawal at all .  I no longer have the symptoms, upon waking up this morning.   All my research shows the opposite happening to people. They get flush or chills or tingles or emotional while its on, however I feel great when its on. My mood has been amazing. I took it off for the weekend to give it a break and didn’t want to forget it or something at my sisters.

    Thanks again for any help. Emilly                                                                  l

    #391541
    Emmy8675309
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    Hi Anita, I put it on a silver chain, wrapped it in some wire to hold it.

    Emmy

    #366534
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    Hi Peggy,

    I wanted to check in on you, since you said you had been tired. I go through that from medical and depression reasons. I hope all is well, sending light and love your way. (i thought i posted this yesterday, but its not here).

    Emmy

    #366506
    Emmy8675309
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    Hi Peggy,

    i just wanted to check in on you, this time. You had said you had a bout of the tired, so making sure all is well. I go through the same, usually a medical issue or my depression. So i hope all is well. Sending light and love. Be well.

    Emmy

    #366321
    Emmy8675309
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    Hi Peggy,

    Thanks for checking in. I hope all is ok on your end and you are well. I appreciate the help. I too go through days like that.

    Thank you again

    Emmy

     

    #366140
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    Hi Peggy,

    I actually sleep w a rock lamp in my room, have for about 2 years, and carry selenite, a nice piece of it, i put it under my pillow. I sage often as well. Thank you for all your help, i am very grateful.

    Thank you again,

    Emmy

    #366064
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    Hello Peggy,

    Yes this one year has been centered around this one person, and the past few years have been bad, this one just seems to be in line w the rest of them. I rarely get the luxury of messages from dead relatives, thats why when i got the date 8/22, i saved in to remember. I see things, but it may be my imagination, more in my minds eye than in front of me ( how i got the date) . Thank you again. I wasnt sure if it were the full moon or me going through something else.

    thanks

    Emmy

    #365982
    Emmy8675309
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    Good Morning Peggy,

    I hope all is well. Just an update: The blocks aren’t moving, the signs are just as bad if not worse. haven’t had a dream i can remember. And i feel like im losing my mind. Again, trying to post on here and it keeps kicking me off.  It is as though someone doesn’t want me to have the answer.  tough few days.

    Best wishes, Emmy

     

     

    #365815
    Emmy8675309
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    Good morning Peggy,

    Thank you for your help an kindness, i really appreciate them.

    I lit some sage and a candle and said a prayer, to release him from any burden he may have associated with me, over all life times. I forgave him for what he had done. I don’t know if this is going to help him, but if this is what the issue is, i wished him peace.

    I was hopeful it were a person, a friend, a love, looking for me, but if this is what it is, then i hope he is free.

    I would love to hear more, if you felt like digging deeper. I had worked w a shaman years ago. We worked on past life regression. I was, at that time , a Spanish general who killed a woman because she was poor. At that time she had forgiven me, and moved on (during the regression).  So any other insight is always welcome.

    Thank you again for helping, i usually am alone in this.

    Emmy

     

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