jamie,im sorry to hear what had ahppen to u but i think u just giving ur x lots of attention,try to overcome it by goin to enjoy urself,,take care of urself by strting to go to gym 2 a week..meeting alot of people makes u feel better and increase to self confidence,,try to be happy most of the time be positive in life,,,ive been there lots of times,,feel worse than u,,and i still managed to survive,now im just focusing my mind to the grat things i made not on bad things ive made before,dnt dwell on it..relax and go on im sure u can move on,,with the help of prayer,its a great way of relaxing ur mind,,hope u feel better soon,ur friend ferdi