Thank you for all the great responses and ideas it really means a lot to know people I don’t even know would take the time to read my silly story and give me some ideas.

Depression I may have so it’s hard to find the motivation to push on. I’m social at work and friendly but no one really knows my private boring life.Once I’m home from work I don’t talk with anyone all evening and all the weekend until Monday when I’m back at work.

I think cause I never married or had a family I have no purpose only to work to pay my bills food etc.

I’ve got 2 weeks leave starting next week but nowhere to go it’s boring going away alone I used to do it when I was younger but can’t get motivated to do it as an older man now.

I think I still had dreams then but not so much being older.I should do some housework but I’ve said that before and it hasn’t happened.

Thanks again everyone it means so much to connect and get some ideas.

Regards Dustin