Hi guys.  I’m here for a little update. So I finally travelled to France alone, heartbroken.  Actually that’s wasn’t a bad move at all. After two weeks I have managed to find a job in a 4**** hotel. The only job I’ve applied to. I really felt that life was on my side this time. As for my ex wife she offered herself to bring me the kids for two months at the end of November. She herself will only stay few days with my family and go back to Argentina on her own. Well it’s really nice from her since she will take on her vocation to do so. I spent a lot of time with my mother, hiking and cooking.  Haven’t been alone with her in years so it’s good time to talk. I exercise quit a lot as well, work and keep busy. My plan is still to go back to Argentina and study even if thinking of going back there kills me. To be honest I’m enjoying my life here but I have to be close to my boys.

I am not over my ex wife. I still fantasize about having her back even if she is sending me messages that she moved forward. Lately she is complaining that taking care of the kids is too much for her. She tries to make me feels bad I guess. She forgot who dumped who and who has to take responsibilities for his action.  Maybe it’s because I never complain about my situation to her and that I always try to sound alright when I talk to the kids through the internet everyday.  Not a day has passed without me crying for her and my kids but I will never tell her. I just want to sound that I can move forward myself in my life.  Truth is I miss her like crazy and her new relationship is killing me. But  I have to concentrate on myself and the kids.

That’s all for today folks. I never thought I would make it through. I still have a lot of battle and hardship to face but day after day, steps after steps I will make it through this storm.  I m still in the midst of it but now I know that there is a way out. Just have to  find  it.

Thanks for your support.

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