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February 21, 2020 at 6:22 pm #339396
I went on a past topic you reported and this is how you responsed to someone who had a similar situation to what I did, but difference is the person actually touched the child and here’s how you responded, I was just curious in knowing how comes I’ve received a different to response to this person who actually abused a child:
This thread started May 5, 2013, more than five years ago. On the first post, the original post, a member mentioned sexual behavior in childhood that he regrets as an adult, feeling shame and guilt. The reason this is the longest active thread on the site is because there are so many, many people who regret their sexual behavior as children. So many people consumed with shame and guilt over sexual behavior in childhood.
I communicated with a few members on this thread and stopped at one point. I didn’t want to communicate anymore about sexual acts done (by children) to children and animals. I couldn’t stomach it anymore, made me cringe. And yet, members keep posting here, experiencing real pain, and so, I want to respond without attending to any particular sexual act, without discussing such details.
First and foremost, most important thing: children should be protected from aggression, no aggression should be expressed to children (yelling, disrespectful tone of voice, disrespectful words, silent treatment/angry withdrawal, and so on). Children should also be protected from being sexually explored and/ or used by other children particularly older children and by adults. This protection must not be compromised for any reason.
Using animals for sex is wrong too.
Now the rest of my post: there is nothing much that brings up so much shame and guilt in people than the topic of sex. Often it is a retroactive shame and guilt: the young child knows nothing about right and wrong until he or she is taught right and wrong. Shame and guilt regarding acts done with no awareness of it being wrong, that is, being potentially harmful, are not justified. You didn’t know. When there was no aggression involved and you didn’t see any sign of distress, and you weren’t taught it was wrong to do this or that, you simply didn’t know. Can’t be held accountable for what you did in those circumstances.
Many of the acts were done following watching porn or looking at porn magazines. The industry of porn is so huge, involving many of millions of people producing the material, being part of the material, performers, and paying for the material, customers. This is an unfortunate reality. I wish this industry did not at all exist, none of it, not the less harmful and not the more harmful, the devastating illegal content porn . Pornography harms lots and lots of people, including children exposed to it.
When you watched pornographic images as a child, no wonder you were intrigued. No wonder you were motivated to try some of those things you watched. Notice the “big picture” here. The Wrong is much bigger than your experimenting following such viewing, there is a multi billion industry in the picture. It will be helpful if you did what you can do now as an adult, to protect children from pornography, to pay attention so that they are not exposed to it, and to supervise children otherwise, so to prevent sexual exploration and acting by some against others.
It is important that you don’t join the industry by paying any money into it, purchasing any film or buying a magazine with such images. Do what you can to not encourage this industry, and if you can, discourage it best you can.
If only we could go back into the past and not do certain things… if only, oh, how we would go back. But we can’t. So this is what you can do: think, did anyone get hurt, if the answer is possibly, see a capable, professional psychotherapist or counselor so to investigate whether a harm was potentially done. And if so, what, if anything, you need to do now: what will be the right thing for you to do now, if anything.
If there is nothing for you to do, then you have to endure the shame and guilt you feel. And I understand feeling it when intellectually you understand that you were not accountable for your actions then. So you endure it, accept it. Sometimes shame and guilt are so intense and have been going on for so long, that they will not go away, can’t just let it go (in the title of this thread). So don’t try. Let it be.
And here is how you begin the process of the shame and guilt getting weaker and weaker until one day you notice that it is not there anymore, so weak, that it is not a problem for you anymore: you lead your life now attentively best you can, attentive to do right by others as well as by yourself, to do-no-harm to others and none to yourself. This is how you earn your self forgiveness. Avoid people who harm you, protect yourself, and do no harm to others.
Instead of silently suffering shame and guilt, as if your suffering helps you or others (it only harms you and others who are negatively affected by your suffering), actively do what is right for you and for others. It is the active living, the attentive, thoughtful choosing of your words and actions that will earn you this desired self forgivenessFebruary 21, 2020 at 5:42 pm #339392
Where in the law does it state looking through a diaper is child abuse ?February 21, 2020 at 5:38 pm #339390
Basically when I was around 13 years old, I had a sexual urge out of nowhere, and I almost made a mistake, that was totally out of character at the time, so basically I was looking after a family friends child, and for some reason I had a sexual urge, not that I am attracted to child, or what not because I am totally not, I love females, but at the Time I don’t understand where this urge Came from and I thought of having sex with a 1 year old at the time, thank God I didn’t, because I came to notice it was a boy because when I looked through their diaper I discovered it was a boy so I didn’t go there, but looking back at it, as a adult, I feel disgusted and sick at my actions, I’ve even had suicidal thoughts, and so on, because the adult in me regrets what I almost did and I am often guilt tripped every time I’ve even went to see a therapist about this issue and I just don’t know what to do, at times I feel like I don’t enjoy my life as much because of this little situation that happened in my childhood, and I just need advice in this situation, I need helpFebruary 21, 2020 at 4:52 pm #339384
now I am a adult and this happened over 10 years ago, and how isit child abuse when I never did anything to the child? I never did anything sexual or anything, or touched any private part, I actually didn’t do anything, it’s just that my thinking was wrong and so on and I almost committed a bad mistake I was very young and stupidFebruary 21, 2020 at 4:09 pm #339378
I didn’t harm the child in any wayFebruary 21, 2020 at 3:52 pm #339376
Ermm I don’t understand what all this means, I didn’t actually commit a offence did I?, but I was wrong In having a attention, and hearing all that being written doesn’t make me feel any better? Can I get an opinion of what you guys think and how do I get past it, I almost done an impulsive mistake I was a kidFebruary 21, 2020 at 1:43 pm #339362
Hey guys thank you for your advice it’s been really helpful, and I’ve been to see the therapist once well he’s a hypnotherapist, in attempt to remove my negative thinking and he said the same things you guys said the fact that I was at that age and I was just coming to puberty and so on and the fourth, the thing that guilt trips me is the fact that I attempted to do it but didn’t do it because I discovered it was a boy and if it wasn’t I feel like I would of went through with it just out of impulsive because as you guys said it was the age I was and I find that incredibly disgusting and I have been a ashamed of myself because of it, and it was some else is child, even looking through the diaper disgustes me and if I could go back in time I would of slapped myself because yeah it was a crazy thought I had and the fact that I attempted it is crazy to me