Hi Lynn

I was in a sitiuation like your although I was not married . I moved home even though my family werent to happy about it, I got a job in a factory no skills required and got a room in a house . I made new friends stayed away from men went out had fun wrote a list of what I knew I did not want in a man or in my life.
Then when I decided to go out there and look for someone I kept that list in my head and anything I knew I would not be able to live with in someone I moved on and then out of no where I met my wonderful husband he is not perfect but neither am I but he is loving supportive kind and faithful we are a team thats all we can ask for in love so be thankful that as scary as this journey is you can get away and you have the chance to start a fresh.
You can do this you already believe in you and you sound like a good person but going it alone is scary loads of times I nearly picked up that phone and asked my ex to take me back the fear consumed me we find it hard to change but when we do its amazing.
Good luck Lynn.