Dear Anita,

What all is there to experience friend if you have to go through it alone without a partner? I feel scared of not having a partner I like
I know there is much more to experience, it makes me feel scared and excited, of what lies ahead.
How do you think of what can be friend? To think you also deserve happiness for being yourself even if have your down moments.
I guess i am learning on how to handle conflicts and being alone, i have grown very dependant on my friends, I am grateful i have a good friend circle, including you dear Anita.
Yes, you are making sense friend.

What i have also realised that i need to control my feeling of lust, some people are able to find a partner to fulfill it like SS did, as i dont have a choice, i should learn how to control it or better be okay to live with that feeling.

Hoping to hear from you friend and about your day.

Your friend
Goingthroughlife

Dear Anita
I’m really glad you had the such a good sleep.

Yes, maybe I’ll try to cry a bit again and go to sleep, even though I feel she’s not worth it.

Thank you for your kind words friend, the funny thing is I never wanted to attract someone else, i thought SS will be the end goal, maybe I couldn’t express SS the same, funny how things turned out.

Maybe the gut feeling was that I don’t really like her at that time but still I was afraid to be alone, so I continued but with time I got comfortable.

Should I take it as everything happens for better? What do you say friend

GoingThroughLife

Dear Anita

I hope you had a good night and sleep. I had a productive day, worked in the office, followed my diet, went for a jog and practiced my guitar and singing. I feel better.

Yes I still miss SS a lot and I wonder will i ever find someone else. SS was really good in the 1st year, but due to my attachment style I didn’t open up, I was too late. I don’t know if there will be another chance again.

Also SS left me saying she wants to enjoy her golden period and she’ll go for arrange marriage down the line, we were not intimate in the last 2 months of the relationship. I miss all that and hate the thought of her getting intimate with someone else.

Well I needed to vent, thank you for listening friend. I hope to hear about your day.

Your friend
GoingThroughLife

Dear Anita

Thank you for understanding my feelings.

I hope you get through this lonely night by being with yourself. I’ll be here to listen you talk about your day friend.

Goingthroughlife

Dear Anita

Thank you for listening. I hope you’re well to friend.

GoingThroughLife

Dear friend Anita

I apologize for not getting back to you right away. I did read through your previous message and you’re quite right. I do make an obsession. I think I need to read your message again and go through those feelings to solve them myself from the inside.

I hope you’re doing very well anita, still volunteering and socialising with your friends and enjoying it all the same time. I’d love to hear more from you and your life dear friend.

GoingThroughLife

Dear Anita

Sounds so interesting friend, growing so much stuff right from the ground, my mother is fond of gardening, she would have told enjoyed this so much.

Thank you for sharing this, I think till now I just thought about what I should speak to cross my point, my feelings, it’s very thoughtful and smart to also think about how the other person will feel and how our words may resolve their inner conflict, at least with us.

Your day sounded very calm and nice Anita. It would be so calming to live between hundreds of trees, to interact with people who are at peace. No one is running after the next task, goal or money. It’s sounds magical to hear, sounds like a self sustaining closed economy. I wish I can experience the same feelings as your experience Anita during your wonderful day.

Yes, you are right friend about SS. But still she had a part of my heart which will never go away. I just don’t feel attracted to someone else, I think it happens because you accepted the other person for whom they were, they were all you wanted.

I’m excited to hear what happened through the last 2 days in your life friend. I’ll be going on several city outings with my mother, I’ll definitely share all the exciting stuff we saw and did.

I hope you’re well friend Anita.

GoingThroughLife

Dear Anita

Thank you for your compliment friend, but I still inherently feel immature and need to build up more in the sense of my composure, integrity and aura. I need to become more masculine.

Your day seems interesting Anita, what kind of volunteering work are you into if I may ask. And you’re building up on your social skills a lot by interacting with people throughtout the year. That’s great to hear.

But Anita, what do you hope about in general? About life in general?

I always feel like talking to you dear friend.

I hope you’re well and hoping for your reply soon.

GoingThroughLife