Dear Anita, thank you for your kind words. I’m happy too.

To clarify, I was talking about SS’ best friend’s ex boyfriend, and I was only thinking in terms of a platonic relationship. We broke up together with our partners, so we have been supporting each other.

I don’t know if SS even misses me, we shared a lot of memories together, trips, nights, a lot of stuff. I’m sure she did everything in a rush. I just want to move on and tell myself I deserve the trust and integrity. Breakups are not easy….

Hoping for your reply soon dear Anita.

GoingThroughLife

Dear Anita, I agree with you. As time passes i am becoming aware of the problems the relationship had, where we both were wrong and I am starting to forgive us both. I am opening myself to uncertainty again. It is the only constatnt. I have also realised she was not the one, or everything would have worked out. I have started to make space for something new and uncertain and unfamiliar.

Anita, I made a friend who maybe feels like a small brother, he his SS best friends boyfriend, i care about him, but there is something which is scared in me to lose him, maybe because of the memories we made together. We went on 2 couple trips together. I am hoping to start a new beginning with him too, maybe we can tranform our friendship to something else. Any guidance on the same friend Anita?

I have been working under my father for 2 weeks now, it feels safe, he is guiding me, like i always wanted. I took a loop of faith out of intution, fear and faith. I hope everything works out in my career too.

Hoping to hear from you soon

Goingthroughlife

Dear Anita. Thank you for understanding. It hurts how someone just changes so much soon, when you yourself did all you could in and out of the relationship, maybe I wasn’t the best at tending to her feelings, but at least I never betrayed her. Today is the first night without her and without me planning to text her at 3 am in the night and it’s hard. She wants to date other guys, I know she still has feelings because she was calling me by my pet name, last time I met her, and said baby and I love you, when I called her during panic attack. It’s sad how someone you love dies suddenly in front of you. I’m actually sleeping with my sister and mother to seek safety and comfort.

I’m glad to hear this about your life, only thing we can do is continue to grow and heal. I hope you keep getting healed and happy in your own journey of going through life Anita.

I miss SS. Maybe it’s just about time.

Hoping to hear from you soon friend.

GoingThroughLife

Sure Anita.

We are not meeting today. We had our goodbye over text, she just wants to be left alone and she’s okay with the consequences. I think I need to move on now. I’ll cry, I’ll hurt, maybe I’ll find no one better or more fun, but I’ll have to move on. Push has come to shove.

Dear Anita

In our time together she showed me a lot of love. Maybe I did not shows as much as I should have, but I was her rock for every important thing. I was referring to the time after I found out she kissed someone else in the previous message.

GoingThroughLife

Thank you for your response Anita

I don’t why girls are so immature dear Anita. Without any hesitation she just went out and did this and blamed the relationship for it. She had been betrayed so many times before and she did exactly that. I just want to feel better about myself and it just hurts, that she’s easily getting physical with someone else, someone who doesn’t even love her.

I don’t know if we are even meeting tomorrow. I just want to turn back time to the old days.

GoingThroughLife

I hope you’re well dear Anita.

I feel light and feeling better as of now. Listening to some fun music, picking up my guitar again and singing my favourite songs, although sad songs, but good. Hoping to sleep tonight without any panics.

Dear Anita, I was following intermittent fasting for the past 4 weeks, I’m happy to share that I feel like I’m shedding weight now.

I have decided to meet SS tomorrow if she agrees, I never ended my past relationships with a proper goodbye, I know how preciously short this life is, I want to have a proper goodbye for me.

Thank you for being part of this journey, my journey friend Anita.

GoingThroughLife