Dear Anita

I hope you’re well. I’m glad to hear that, I’ll definitely share with you. I’m writing this while in a bus travelling to Rishikesh for my first ever solo trip. SS and me planned to go here, but this place has been calling me for some time, so I thought why not solo.

If I can I’ll share photos of that place with you, as much as I have got to know you, i know you’ll love it.

Hoping to hear from you soon friend.

Goingthroughlife

Dear Anita

Good morning to you, haha it does seem quite unique, it’s fun I’m talking to someone so far away but still so close.

Thank you for your contribution to the forums each and every day friend.

Yes, I have taken steps, I have made some new friends, I’m planning to ask my friends to set me up with someone not now but sometimes later, I have made a profile on a dating app and I’m actively trying. I still pray to god and I still take action for whatever I pray for, things won’t just fall into my lap.

Hoping to hear about your evening there friend.

GoingThroughLife

Dear Anita

Yeah, you’re right. Well that’s what SS said to me, and maybe yes most women have that intention too, still dating here is very hard due to the cons of modern dating. No one wants to put in the hard work or except something less.

Goingthroughlife

Dear Anita,

What all is there to experience friend if you have to go through it alone without a partner? I feel scared of not having a partner I like
I know there is much more to experience, it makes me feel scared and excited, of what lies ahead.
How do you think of what can be friend? To think you also deserve happiness for being yourself even if have your down moments.
I guess i am learning on how to handle conflicts and being alone, i have grown very dependant on my friends, I am grateful i have a good friend circle, including you dear Anita.
Yes, you are making sense friend.

What i have also realised that i need to control my feeling of lust, some people are able to find a partner to fulfill it like SS did, as i dont have a choice, i should learn how to control it or better be okay to live with that feeling.

Hoping to hear from you friend and about your day.

Your friend
Goingthroughlife

Dear Anita
I’m really glad you had the such a good sleep.

Yes, maybe I’ll try to cry a bit again and go to sleep, even though I feel she’s not worth it.

Thank you for your kind words friend, the funny thing is I never wanted to attract someone else, i thought SS will be the end goal, maybe I couldn’t express SS the same, funny how things turned out.

Maybe the gut feeling was that I don’t really like her at that time but still I was afraid to be alone, so I continued but with time I got comfortable.

Should I take it as everything happens for better? What do you say friend

GoingThroughLife

Dear Anita

I hope you had a good night and sleep. I had a productive day, worked in the office, followed my diet, went for a jog and practiced my guitar and singing. I feel better.

Yes I still miss SS a lot and I wonder will i ever find someone else. SS was really good in the 1st year, but due to my attachment style I didn’t open up, I was too late. I don’t know if there will be another chance again.

Also SS left me saying she wants to enjoy her golden period and she’ll go for arrange marriage down the line, we were not intimate in the last 2 months of the relationship. I miss all that and hate the thought of her getting intimate with someone else.

Well I needed to vent, thank you for listening friend. I hope to hear about your day.

Your friend
GoingThroughLife

Dear Anita

Thank you for understanding my feelings.

I hope you get through this lonely night by being with yourself. I’ll be here to listen you talk about your day friend.

Goingthroughlife