Dear Anita, I hope you had a restful sleep.

I just wanted to let you know that I don’t want to talk about SS for the time being. I need to give myself distance from her and her memories and move on. I hope you won’t mention SS in the subsequent messages.

But I’m not closing our conversations, we can still talk about general guidance regarding my life, maybe I’ll ask for advice when I’m missing SS a lot, and maybe I can get to know more about you and your life or your day, ofc if you would like to share with me.

Hoping to hear from you soon friend.

GoingThroughLife

I’m planning to talk to her if we can continue going on casual dates, as after a few months she will be moving to another city most probably. As I will be meeting her today, I hope you can guide and reply to my messages today dear Anita.

Dear Anita,

Yes, I was ready to forgive her, but she never asked for my forgiveness, she never showed me remorse, never showed she loves me, came to meet me. What I mean she did not try to look for me even a bit. I’m the one who’s doing that. I’m very sad this came out to be the result, when I tried to love her for who she is apart from her quirks and short comings. We even got pregnant once, and I was there for her throughout, even I was scared and scarred.

We are meeting today Anita. I just miss her and our time together. Hope whatever happens I come out strong and happy. I’m trying to choose her out of love and passion, than fear. I’m ready to let go out of love rather than fear.

GoingThroughLife

Hear Anita.

I don’t know how she will react. as I said I took a chance, I as scared as I can be.

Thank your being here dear Anita. I talked to SS on the phone today, cried a lot, and she confessed it was more than a kiss and she made out with that guy 2 times, second time after i found out. I convinced her, but maybe i’m just scared of losing her and being alone. How can i ever live with a cheater. She blames me for telling her brother what she did. Yes, i told her brother what she did. A bit immature but i was in shock.

I had a long talk with my elder sister and she told me to work on yourself and stay away from her, she is an immature stupid woman, and my sister knows i dont want to be with her anymore, i am just looking for someone for physical and emotional support now. SS told me she has no feelings for me now, and i cant convince her of that. We will maybe meet tomorrow as i convinced her enough to meet me once. Dear anita, i am scared and this is not what i wanted to happen, i loved SS as purely i could. My gut still says to pursue it, but maybe i will get more hurt, what are your thoughts Anita, i dont belive in letting go and thinking it will work in the future, if it has to work, it will work right now or never.

Awaiting your thoughts and guidance dear Anita, till that time i will maybe send a couple of messages more of whether i will meet her or not, i think i want to meet her at least for the last goodbye.

Goingthroughlife

I’m still texting and trying to get on call with her. Anita pls guide me. The pain in unbearable.

Goingthroughlife

I called her during the panic attacks for comfort. Missed to mention that.

Dear Anita

I think so, but I talked to her today over the call. She said she has lost feelings, i apologized for being ignorant during the relationship, but I said I wanted to still try for us, I know if not her someone else is there, but I just want to try my best, I don’t want to regret anything. It hurts she kissed someone else, and she met him again actually. But my gut says to still try, so I am trying. I love her for who she is, apart from the cheating part.

My fear of being alone is hard to explain. It’s like a mental and physical support I seek, I feel empty without a relationship. Although i know it’s not good, but this is what it is.

Hoping for your reply Dear Anita

Goingthroughlife