Dear Anita, thank you for your replies.

Yes I did have retrospective jealousy with SK, but I no longer suffer from it. I think that’s a wound I would love not to scratch again.

No, I am only jealous of the sexual activity right now, i did not care about previous things, never gave it any energy.

SS called me 50 times yesterday night and texts because her best friend has panic attacks. She says she needs help in discussing what I told her best friends ex about the cheating SS best friend did. I have chosen to ignore her, i don’t want to give any effort into her life now.

Hoping for your reply soon.

Dear Anita.

I let go of talking to SS 2 days back. But after 2 days she texted miss you out of the blue.

I talked to her like I don’t care and I’m fine with everything. Why is she texting I miss you after all this. I think she’s just immature. I wanted this to work really. I have asked God to give me what I need, and I have told him what I need.

I’m just keeping faith and patience to get what I need from the universe.

I am sorry if I have been less appreciate of you Anita. You are a wonderful human being, thank you for being here.

Hoping to hear from you soon.

Dear Anita, thank you for your kind words. I’m happy too.

To clarify, I was talking about SS’ best friend’s ex boyfriend, and I was only thinking in terms of a platonic relationship. We broke up together with our partners, so we have been supporting each other.

I don’t know if SS even misses me, we shared a lot of memories together, trips, nights, a lot of stuff. I’m sure she did everything in a rush. I just want to move on and tell myself I deserve the trust and integrity. Breakups are not easy….

Hoping for your reply soon dear Anita.

GoingThroughLife

Dear Anita, I agree with you. As time passes i am becoming aware of the problems the relationship had, where we both were wrong and I am starting to forgive us both. I am opening myself to uncertainty again. It is the only constatnt. I have also realised she was not the one, or everything would have worked out. I have started to make space for something new and uncertain and unfamiliar.

Anita, I made a friend who maybe feels like a small brother, he his SS best friends boyfriend, i care about him, but there is something which is scared in me to lose him, maybe because of the memories we made together. We went on 2 couple trips together. I am hoping to start a new beginning with him too, maybe we can tranform our friendship to something else. Any guidance on the same friend Anita?

I have been working under my father for 2 weeks now, it feels safe, he is guiding me, like i always wanted. I took a loop of faith out of intution, fear and faith. I hope everything works out in my career too.

Hoping to hear from you soon

Goingthroughlife

Dear Anita. Thank you for understanding. It hurts how someone just changes so much soon, when you yourself did all you could in and out of the relationship, maybe I wasn’t the best at tending to her feelings, but at least I never betrayed her. Today is the first night without her and without me planning to text her at 3 am in the night and it’s hard. She wants to date other guys, I know she still has feelings because she was calling me by my pet name, last time I met her, and said baby and I love you, when I called her during panic attack. It’s sad how someone you love dies suddenly in front of you. I’m actually sleeping with my sister and mother to seek safety and comfort.

I’m glad to hear this about your life, only thing we can do is continue to grow and heal. I hope you keep getting healed and happy in your own journey of going through life Anita.

I miss SS. Maybe it’s just about time.

Hoping to hear from you soon friend.

GoingThroughLife

Sure Anita.

We are not meeting today. We had our goodbye over text, she just wants to be left alone and she’s okay with the consequences. I think I need to move on now. I’ll cry, I’ll hurt, maybe I’ll find no one better or more fun, but I’ll have to move on. Push has come to shove.

Dear Anita

In our time together she showed me a lot of love. Maybe I did not shows as much as I should have, but I was her rock for every important thing. I was referring to the time after I found out she kissed someone else in the previous message.

GoingThroughLife

Thank you for your response Anita

I don’t why girls are so immature dear Anita. Without any hesitation she just went out and did this and blamed the relationship for it. She had been betrayed so many times before and she did exactly that. I just want to feel better about myself and it just hurts, that she’s easily getting physical with someone else, someone who doesn’t even love her.

I don’t know if we are even meeting tomorrow. I just want to turn back time to the old days.

GoingThroughLife