Hear Anita.

I don’t know how she will react. as I said I took a chance, I as scared as I can be.

Thank your being here dear Anita. I talked to SS on the phone today, cried a lot, and she confessed it was more than a kiss and she made out with that guy 2 times, second time after i found out. I convinced her, but maybe i’m just scared of losing her and being alone. How can i ever live with a cheater. She blames me for telling her brother what she did. Yes, i told her brother what she did. A bit immature but i was in shock.

I had a long talk with my elder sister and she told me to work on yourself and stay away from her, she is an immature stupid woman, and my sister knows i dont want to be with her anymore, i am just looking for someone for physical and emotional support now. SS told me she has no feelings for me now, and i cant convince her of that. We will maybe meet tomorrow as i convinced her enough to meet me once. Dear anita, i am scared and this is not what i wanted to happen, i loved SS as purely i could. My gut still says to pursue it, but maybe i will get more hurt, what are your thoughts Anita, i dont belive in letting go and thinking it will work in the future, if it has to work, it will work right now or never.

Awaiting your thoughts and guidance dear Anita, till that time i will maybe send a couple of messages more of whether i will meet her or not, i think i want to meet her at least for the last goodbye.

Goingthroughlife

I’m still texting and trying to get on call with her. Anita pls guide me. The pain in unbearable.

Goingthroughlife

I called her during the panic attacks for comfort. Missed to mention that.

Dear Anita

I think so, but I talked to her today over the call. She said she has lost feelings, i apologized for being ignorant during the relationship, but I said I wanted to still try for us, I know if not her someone else is there, but I just want to try my best, I don’t want to regret anything. It hurts she kissed someone else, and she met him again actually. But my gut says to still try, so I am trying. I love her for who she is, apart from the cheating part.

My fear of being alone is hard to explain. It’s like a mental and physical support I seek, I feel empty without a relationship. Although i know it’s not good, but this is what it is.

Hoping for your reply Dear Anita

Goingthroughlife

Hi Anita, I hope you’re well my friend.

SS and I haven’t gotten back together, I have told her my feelings and my intention of getting back but she’s says there’s no point, as there is no future now because of the cheating incident.

The only validation I mostly seek is by being in a relationship with someone, meaning that they accept me for who I am. It also stems from my fear of being alone.

I have no health concerns Anita, I’m just a bit overweight and I would like to attain and maintain a leaner physic.

Hoping to hear from you soon Anita.

Goingthroughlife

Hi dear Anita,

Yes, there’s nothing wrong, she asked me if I want to get together, how will I ever trust again if I get with her. I did not answer her question.

Anita, as I was bullied and told I was ugly in my childhood, I inherently seek external validation through relationships and intimacy.

I’m happy about the decision I made career wise, it makes me feel very light, I just want to make my other aspects of life better too, I want to achieve what I want to, because it’s one life. I have started focusing on my health and I want to become my best version physically and emotionally, but I think that’s too to attract relationships in my life.

I hope I’m not blabbering in dear Anita. Thank you for listening.

Hoping to hear from you soon friend.

GoingThroughLife

Thank you for your reply dear Anita. I’m happy I could make you smile.

After the breakup, I knew there was a need to change, I have decided to pursue the professional course I was running away for years, since 2019 actually. Now it’s 2025 and I’m 24, it’s now or never, and pursuing this course will give me certainty in life, which is very needed. As you know my confused nature, I will try to go back on my decision, but I trust I will talk to myself in not going back. This course gives me a chance to scale my father’s work.

My heart feels lighter in choosing this path for me, it’s scared but it feels right.

I have started working on my health and I know although a very tough path may lie ahead, I will get through it listening to my heart.

Thank you for listening again my friend Anita.

Hoping to hear from you soon
GoingThroughLife