I think you are playing a victim here. It’s very easy to point fingers, to blame parents, to analyze and over-analyze all the misfortunes happened to you. But as you said it can take your life down. If you have heard of law of attraction, it says whatever you put your attention on multiplies. So try to think and focus on positives.

They say that in relationships, it takes two to tango. If she cheated on you, maybe there were somethings about you that she didn’t like. I know it’s hard to accept it when you are only seeing your side. But did you shower her with attention, with gifts, with promise of good life together?

I think noone will like and likes to hang out with sulking person. So please pick yourself up, be the best you can be, don’t regret what you lost because definitely something and someone much better is coming into your life.