You are going thru many stressful things right now that feel overwhelming—job change, new living situation, disappointment abt the new job. It is understandable how all these would cause you to have anxiety, panic attacks, and cause you to relapse on your ED. You have the support of a therapist and a partner, and have had the strength to battle an ED. Sometimes life throws a lot at us at once… just break it down into manageable pieces. Mindfulness is helpful—be present with what is, and not just with what’s in your mind. Make lists to help you prioritize what needs to be done in order for you to feel more comfortable and secure. For me, that would be putting my home in order. Always, self-care should be first. Sleep, and healthy eating will keep your energy up. Let the people in your life help you.

may you find peace and  feel better soon.