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  • in reply to: Karmic relationships #439311
    Jana 🪷
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    I hope we’re still okay. I “feel” that you are not comfortable with these Buddhist topics and I now understand that you are probably not a lay Buddhist like me, which I really don’t want to bother you with.

    I’m going to retreat from tinybuddha for a few days to clear my mind, get some new energy and also prepare for the winter – there’s a lot to do outside.

    Take care! 🙂

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    in reply to: Feeling so lost after leaving #439310
    Jana 🪷
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    Hello Louise,

    I completely understand that in crises one can act rashly and make some mistakes. But there’s no need to punish yourself for that. Now you’re here and now. Take your time, take a deep breathe and you will gradually figure out what to do next.

    I’m new here and still a bit hesitant to join the forum as someone who should give advice. (especially regarding relationships as it’s a very sensitive and individual thing)

    However, have you considered carefully whether you want to go back to your boyfriend because you genuinely miss him or whether it’s more out of a “false sense of security”? What about the other man? Where is he now?

    Also, I was wondering if maybe you have the opportunity to buy/rent your own house/apartment in a place you really love and start building a new chapter of your life?

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    in reply to: Karmic relationships #439307
    Jana 🪷
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    Compassion is not pity or self-sacrifice.☀️

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    in reply to: Karmic relationships #439286
    Jana 🪷
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    “I can feel a warm connection to them only as the babies and young children that they were before they became bad people. I feel connected to them only in the sense that they are waves (unfortunately, some are huge waves) in the ocean where I am also a wave.”

    That’s nice and useful advice on how to maintain the buddhist “neutrality of mind”. I find this advice on cultivating compassion for others very useful, as well. I found it here a few weeks ago: https://zenhabits.net/a-guide-to-cultivating-compassion-in-your-life-with-7-practices/  Although I realize it’s very hard to feel compassion for really bad people, I personally believe it’s something to strive for… to get more of those nice waves in the ocean… you know.

    I’m sure it’s a good thing you were able to end all relations with your mother. She sounds like a sadistic person to me. 🙁 Perhaps one day (or more likely in one of many afterlives) she’ll come to peace… but more important is if you’re feeling better today. And I hope that you are not alone and that you are surrounded by people who protect and love you.

    As for my mom, we like and respect each other. I’ve been with my boyfriend for 9 years and I think she knows very well we’re happy together and she likes him too. She was just projecting her ideas and desires onto me… but I think that she understands that I am not her and lets me live the way I want today. (BTW she’s got three other kids and she’s already got four nephews and one niece and will probably have some more in the future by my younger brother, so she can’t really complain about anything. 😀 )

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    in reply to: Karmic relationships #439287
    Jana 🪷
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    “I’m curious, do you remember ever consciously choosing the good path?

    My initial reason was not necessarily a good one, but it was very effective. I simply didn’t want to become like the person who hurt me.”

    Now I’m not sure what you mean. Do you mean it in the context of the path to Buddhism or my practical life?

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    in reply to: Son came out as bi-sexual #439268
    Jana 🪷
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    Hello Arie,

    Expectation brings suffering. Your son is your continuation, but it doesn’t mean that he is YOU.

    Let me show you the other side… I am a heterosexual woman and I won’t have any children, either. My partner is a cancer survivor and cannot have children after radical chemotherapy. I am very happy (and lucky) that he survived and I can still be with him. My mother cannot understand how I can be with someone who can’t have children, because for her as an only child, having children is the most important thing in life… but even though I am her continuation, her daughter (and I accept that and I love her), my dreams, wishes and purpose of life are different. I mean… Don’t judge your son for wanting to be happy in his own way. You don’t bring up children to be a mother/father, heterosexual/homosexual, a christian, a buddhist, a lawyer, a teacher, … you should bring up children to be healthy and happy people. The rest is THEIR decision.

    And I agree with Helcat. This might have been a shock for you. Give yourself time, relax and mainly be happy that your son trusts you and that’s why he confided in you and that because of that he can be much happier now.

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    in reply to: Karmic relationships #439265
    Jana 🪷
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    I especially like this part and can relate to that: “The way I see things, bad things can set life on a unique path in which good things can later follow (sometimes years later). I have had some very difficult experiences, but without them I would never have met my husband or given birth to my son.”

    I think that the first part of my life wasn’t easy for me at all. But because I didn’t turn to evil – I didn’t become the same person as the people who hurt me and I didn’t fall into alcoholism – I got this “reward” (my boyfriend, our peace, …) in my present life. And it makes a perfect sense, doesn’t it. But many people still do not understand this and go down the same path of evil.

    I know the theme of attachment very well. And even though I don’t have unhealthy attachment to my boyfriend – as I realize that one day one of us will die – I believe deep in my heart that we will meet again in next life. 🙂

    Thank you for letting me know about the article View of Interpersonal Karma. I’ll check it!

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    in reply to: Karmic relationships #439264
    Jana 🪷
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    That is very nice and encouraging… because you are a kind person with a good heart and deep understanding. However, you know that there are people who turned to the wrong path and they hurt other people, animals, … And I still have troubles to accept the connection with them, which you describe here.

    “Each one of us is a wave in the ocean, connected, but many don’t feel the connection. many are not aware of the connection. I wasn’t until recently.”

    But I know that there’s this “evil seed” in me, too. I just didn’t decide to water it. I believe that there is the “good seed” in them, as well. But it is not in my power to awaken this good part of them, to let them see and take care of the goodness. I don’t know how to awaken compassion in others… as it seems to me that if I am myself, I am good and compassionate, it is interpreted as a weakness by these people (it is connected to my previous thread about fear of people).

    May I ask you about your relationship with your mom today? Have you found peace with each other? Or have you seperated and you heal her and yourself from distance? (I am very sorry if it is too personal and you do not have to answer if you don’t want to.)

    Thank you!

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    in reply to: Karmic relationships #439263
    Jana 🪷
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    “I can’t change the karma that I created in the past lives but I can be aware of what I am creating now.”

    I agree. I think that Karma can also be a source of suffering for some people who do not understand it properly or they interpret it as a “destiny” or “punishment” for unwholesome actions made in the past life. We cannot place the blame on Karma and give up our responsibility for our lives and good/bad actions.

    These “deja vu” moments, which you mentioned, are also interesting. Who knows if it is really only a vivid imagination or spiritual experience. But you are right and I definitely agree – the most important is the present moment, here and now, and the effort to create good karma for all of us.

     

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    in reply to: Will I ever be free of this fear of people? #439244
    Jana 🪷
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    Thank you once again, Roberta. The teaching about gifts is a great reminder of how to be in peaceful state. Hope we will discuss more in teh future! Have a great Sunday.

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    in reply to: Will I ever be free of this fear of people? #439243
    Jana 🪷
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    Hello Anita again. 🙂

    Thank you for your advice and supportive words. I must say I find you inspiring and strong. Your life is certainly not easy with these disorders, but with your good attitude and effort it is certainly much more joyful.

    I look forward to more discussions with you. 🙂

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    in reply to: Will I ever be free of this fear of people? #439240
    Jana 🪷
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    Thank you a lot, Helcat! You are very kind and I hope that we will be able to get to know each other more here. 🙂

    I haven’t tried a specific type of meditation, yet. I practice breathing meditation. I am trying to calm down my mind now, as I’ve been a bit distracted these days. However, I will definitely find kindness meditation on youtube. Thank you for this tip!

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    in reply to: Will I ever be free of this fear of people? #439233
    Jana 🪷
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    Hello Chris,

    I would like to thank you for your answer and kind words, too. I must say that you seem to be a very wise soul… almost enlightened, I would say. 🙂

    “Only you should have control of your emotions. The hurt is in your own interpretation of their attacks. If you observe how they’re just programmed to behave this way and watch them play it out, instead of feeling hurt or attacked, you may just feel sympathy for them having such little awareness of themselves.”

    – I think I understand your words very well here. It is a bit harder to put these wise thoughts into practical life, but I am working on it. The fact is that if I find myself in a situation when I have to defend myself, I feel a bit guilty when I do so… a bad program in my head, bad ego… but I don’t want to change, I mean, I like thsi sensitive part of my personality… I am able to feel the joy in daily activities, in life… and I think it is because of my sensitive, spiritual part… I don’t want to kill it in me… but I guess I still don’t have control over some of my emotions.

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    in reply to: Will I ever be free of this fear of people? #439232
    Jana 🪷
    Participant
    Hello Anita,
    thank you for your answer and online “research”. It’s really true… I think people were really very negatively influenced by the previous regime. And their children born in the 90s became victims of this regime too, even though it no longer existed at the time, because their parents still carried the pain with them…

    Could you elaborate more on the point you made in your post here: “when we encounter repeated aggression as children and without correction/ support throughout many years, we don’t heal completely. Part of the damage done cannot be undone…” ? Do you mean it is unlikely to heal completely?

     
    And of course, I can give you examples:
    We moved to a small village in the countryside 5 years ago. And there is a landfill nearby. One neighbour, a very ambitious and confident lady, has fought against the company which owns the landfill site for years. And she tried to persuade me to fight against them, too. I didn’t agree because her style of “negotiation” was not sensible for me. We knew very well that it was impossible to stop the landfill and we wanted to make arrangements with the company so that they would always inform us in case of any problems in the landfill site. She told me very offended that I was too lenient and weak and that it was basically my fault that this company could continue to run the landfill site here, because if I had been stronger and more assertive, it wouldn’t have happened.
    Another example was with another neighbour. She is an elderly lady (70) who lives here alone and she always seemed very sad and lonely to me. She is divorced and her boyfriend left her here. Her son doesn’t like to visit her either. I thought I could help her to become more positive by visiting her, taking care and trying to cheer her up when she fell into her negative mood… However, I found out that she is a very negative, almost toxic, person. One day she started swearing at my boyfriend and I had to leave. It was a bit too much for me and in that moment I just had to go away… I told her later that I would always be there for her if she would need any help in the garden or with cooking etc., but I wouldn’t visit her again as a friend… I just needed to set my boundaries because the negativity was kind of taking over me… And she turned everything against me. It happened in April. She refuses to say hello when she meets me even today.

    I also lost two of my students because they both told me that I am too kind and that it was not motivating for them.
    So, these are the examples.
    Thank you for reading! 🙂 And I hope you have a nice Saturday!

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    in reply to: Will I ever be free of this fear of people? #439231
    Jana 🪷
    Participant

    Hello Roberta,

    thank you for your answer and kind words. Yes, you are right that there are a few Buddhist places in Czechia. However, I haven’t considered attending their meetings yet because they do not provide individual sessions or counseling. Also, they belong to so called “Diamond’s Path” and I don’t know this branch of Buddhism. Do you?

    But I do study by myself – I’ve read Dhamapadda, some lectures by Dalai Lama and I follow “Buddhism in English” and “Plum Village” on youtube. I am looking forward to reading Thic Hahn’s The Heart of Buddha’s teaching during Christmas. 🙂

    Thank you and enjoy the weekend! 🙂

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