Yes, I know and I admit she got tired of waiting but she should have understand, it was hard for me to make decision because of religion. When I actually find a solution and was ready to get married, she decides to let go of my hand. Each time I came back for her, she promised me that we will fight this together and we will get married. So, I kept coming back and trust me I turn down about 20 girls, who were willing to marry me. And she knows this. To me, it sound unfair and selfish act from her side, a week before she met this guy, she was so missing me, she was seeing me in her dream, she was able to smell me and wanted to talk to me no matter what. I had a expectation that if I did came back for her 3 times, she could have done at least once for me because I was ready to get marry and have family with her. This is very hard because it was 9yrs, how can a person spent 9yrs with someone and end up getting married to totally someone who she just met 3 months ago. In fact, she got engaged in just like 3 weeks after meeting this person. I am heartbroken because I feel like she just let go off my hand when I stayed with her during her thick and thin. Right now, my heart is splatter and it will never be able to put together. Yes, I understand what she must have felt each time I went back home and that is why I came back because I am not heartless and just walk away.

Hi, Everyone for Thanks for replying. Lucida, I have done so much for her too. I treated her as my wife. In fact, I gave her everything she asked for. I never cheated on her and lie to her. I pick her from work, I took her to trips, I gave her ring, necklace, Candle Light dinner, Rose bed so we can make Love (almost like honeymoon), expensive gifts. I cared for her like no one else I would.
It has been almost 3 month with this guy and I have not contacted her for two weeks but it seems like ages I have not talk to her. There has never been a day that I have not cry for her. When I say cry, I mean crying my lungs out with screams, I think of every second, Everything reminds me of her, I can even picture what her ears looks like, I can even imagine her feet, her eyes, her hair, her fingers, I can hear her, I can smell her.
Last ex GF did kinda curse me that I will never be happy, so that what it is..And I think Every girl I meet end up getting married.
I can not look beyond her, even if a BUTT NAKED girl stand in front of me, I will not touch her because I will feel like I am cheating on her. I do not want to be with any girl beside her.
I did told her that I will marry her if she comes back when she met this guy but she said, she does not love me anymore. I will not survive long if she does not come back.
I did try to explain her that she is going into rebound relationship but she said this is her chance. I been explaining it to her that I did not let her GO GO even this year. I just wanted to rejuvenate my self and work a way out for us to be together. I did stop talking to her because we were fighting a lot but I did not confront her because she will get mad. I was avoiding all the fights so I kept ignoring when she was feeling depress.
One thing for sure, after 1st time I went back home and came back, she stop respecting as much. She would always argue and fight with me and swear at me. It was so easy for her to swear at me but I did not really say much.
Everyone Please pray for her to come back for me ASAP. I promise I will never make her cry. I promise to marry her.