I live with guilt everyday of my life. A mother’s guilt. As a practicing alcoholic for over 30 years I made major life changing mistakes. I will never be able to make up for them.
I work daily at forgiving myself and of course have asked for my two sons forgiveness. How I have done that at 5 years sober is to be transparent about my past and have allowed their anger towards me without defending myself in anyway. Hopefully one day they will see me for who I am today and not who I was. My past has shaped who I am today, I believe I am kind, honest, empathetic and I yet I will never have full peace in my heart. But I do have moments of peace.