Hi

Few years back I have a very good friend. We came together in the same company and new countryand she has been my only family away from home. We had been good friends for two years and love her so much that I became dependent to her. I know that she had love me like a sister, and I was happy with that not until I fall in love with a guy. Being friends are different from being lovers. We got lots of conflict, she got jealous and I did not noticed that our relationship was in cliff. I would go beyond limits because I dont want to loose her, I dont want to loose the good friendship that we had, abd in some point, I got tired. Tried of trying to understand her, what was wrong and I stopped. I stopped ecerything between us. I stopped talking to her. I felt bad for years that I lost a good friend. I felr bad for years that she doesnt understand my situation. And as a result I I limit my emotional connection with people. I limit the poeple who wants yo enter in my life because I was afraid that it might happen again. I was afraid that someone I had loved so much will end up hurting me again. And for years I suffer from sadness and loneliness. Again I was hit by another lost when my four year relationship with a guy end up because of differences: culture and religion. He got marrief last year to another woman who he have not meant and I died that day. I died inside. So bad that until now I felt bad and pain. I am seeing them everyday of my life and it was very very hard. I felt empty. Abd I just dont know what yo do…