In the first place in the buddhist attaches great importance to “karma”,
Some conditions,
Or interpreted as factors,
Don’t I know your life,
So I can’t give you some specific methods,
But I can give you some buddhist aspects of common sense,
The hope can help you,
There’s a phrase in Buddhism is called
Don’t cling to anything, (my English is not very good)
Different people have different understanding,
There is no right or wrong, only appropriate,
I hope you find your wisdom in this sentence,
You can take a look at this site, maybe some ideas can help to you, some articles can help to you,
http://www.zenspeaking.com,
One of the most important thing is, don’t give up hope, don’t go the wrong way,
Have a widget from Tibet, perhaps can also help to you, in “zenspeaking”,
Called “caca – Kurukulle”,
Is one of the many monks blessing this pendant,
Pendant has a strong force of blessing,
And very suitable for your situation (of course, just a suggestion)
I personally is very useful,
If you need,
When you wear it,
Need to remember,
Need to respect this pendant,
(in Tibetan, everything has spiritual)
Don’t put it in the filthy place,
When you go to bed, shower, sex,
Don’t wear, put it in clean place,
And do good, help others more,
A can of words, as much as meditation,
If you can do this,
The pendant blessing force will be more strong,
Very magical,