Hey, i also want to say something here.
I Had similiar experience like you had, but only huge mistake i made was to marry with that control freak.

I lost contact by time and nearly lost contact with my families’ because my ex partner didnot like.
Plus he was an alcholist and big smoker, donot know how many times he drove me crazy because his abussive treat and words and everything with that relationship wasnot normal at all.
Except he entitled that with love.

We married two years and hald , i didnot know how many times i was so desparate and wanted to kill myself.
The difference between us i guess was that it happened on me in another country which wasnot my mother land.
I felt sorry for you, why we were stupidly believed in one person?
We lost dignity to give other people chances to play us.
I guess that was the limit.
I was so sad and still need to clean or face to issues he did, but from the begining wasnot easy to make the choice and sign the paper.
EVen though i knew it would be ending, but it hurt, it was so tough, and also it was complicated.
I couldnot just leave those behind but after like now , being half an year, i talked with friends many times, i was afraid to hang on with friends , i chatted on internet i talked to families i also cried i was so abussive to my families . i blamed it was their fault because i chose him to marry with and so on and so on…..But what i am going to tell you or share with, is actually :

ONE DAY in the morning, i donot feel sad about this any more. I thought it through ,above of all,
it was just one experience, it will never ever happen again as long as i learned from the lesson.
Life is so long, even now it still is hard, but i donot fear to make a life as i dreamt.
The good or the bad, it compleate me.

So i wish you would continue the right direction and go.
The wound will fade ….