I asked my mother about what happened after me and you had talked. Turns out, I have extremely distorted memories most likely from my trauma because she doesn’t recall me trying anything bad on her. And I know her well, and she would most definitely remember something like this happening to her. It could’ve been a dream that I remembered and thought was real or something or I remembered something wrong. It’s extremely likely that I made up this memory because it only really came up when I remembered this molestation stuff. Even at a very young age, I still would’ve remembered it and realized it was bad so it doesn’t exactly make sense. It doesn’t make sense that I would dry hump her that early on in my life either. This is a massive relief.

Also, when I said that she forgave me what I meant was that I came up to her today and I started crying and I asked if she forgave me for my past mistakes. She said yes.

So I have a massive relief right now. Thank you so much for talking to me.

I don’t have any proof of what happened, Anita. I just told one of my parents that I was sexually abused and they said they believed me but I didn’t say who did it despite them asking.

And about 3, how was it not molestation/rape? I don’t know if dry humping was even the right word however, since my memory of that event is fuzzy. It could’ve actually not have been dry humping, but I do remember that

About 4, how would I tell my parents what my sister did to me? My dad never said publicly he’d kill himself, but all what he said was “I live for you and your sister.” What if she tries to shift the blame onto me?