thanks, I would love to do this, but I’m not sure she would be open to it…..the marriage counselor we saw twice wasn’t even a certified  marriage counselor, just a therapist from employee assistance program….

Yes, she is the love of my life, I made mistakes, I don’t want to give up hope, She has told me she has built an emotional wall but I know she still cares for me and the love is in there somewhere…Just trying to show her by my actions that i’ve changed, the changes I should of made earlier in life….I love her unconditionally…..I don’t love easily……I have no interest in dating just continuing to improve myself and be a good parent…..She may be in a rebound as she recently told me that the first guy she dated couldn’t handle how much we communicated…..My kids are challenging and difficult and demand attention constantly from us…. and not over the divorce, I can’t imagine introducing him (along with his kid) will go well…..It would take a lot of work but I do not blame her for wanting out as it was a toxic environment for us and kids…I just couldn’t see it at the time!